31. I release all resistance to attracting money. I am worthy of a positive cash flow.

I just picked myself an “angel” card. The card was Serena “I am the Angel of Abundance. You will receive the money that you need, and God is in charge of how that will happen. Have faith” I sat down and flicked the calendar to today and surprise surprise there was an affirmation about cash flow. Yes Universe I hear you loud and clear. For me this affirmation and angel reading is about stepping up, onwards and upwards. Sure the affirmations is directed towards money and cash flow but this will only happen once I step into my own power and truly believe in myself. Playing small doesn’t serve me nor does it serve anybody else.

To be perfectly honest doing what you always done simply gets you what you always got and to be quite frank it’s shitty and dark. Sometimes shitty and dark is where you need to be.. If you don’t know what the darkness looks like you can never appreciate the light. So although the affirmation and angel card very well may be about money for me it represents so much more than that. If I am in my flow, my purpose .my heart space with compassion and love then money will come to me easily. If I choose to stay in the dark and shitty place then this is all that I will continue to attract. Getting out of that place is what is important. It is not to be judged because of a lot of good stuff and growth happens when we are in our darkness. What I always remember is the darker the darkness the brighter the light.

Ultimately is up to you what you do with your life choices and that will be the difference that you are in the world. You can continue to blame whatever and whoever but personal responsibility is what is most crucial. Some days you may be only able to muster getting out of bed and others you will conquer. There is no right or wrong but our lives are uniquely ours. Sometimes we detour for a while but I am firm believer that sometimes wading through the shit gets us to the magic that we need to see that perhaps we could not see before.

The last month for me has been dark and shitty. That is not to say that there may not be days where I may or may not feel this way. It is about choice to either stay there or pull myself out of there. Living in your heart space, allowing yourself to do what your soul yearns to do is a massive start, unconditional love and integrity is where the action takes place. We can allow ego to take over and for the parasites to infest our minds or we can say fuck ofsky, I have a life to live. So yes the affirmation today very well may have been about money and cash flow but is about so much more. Living life with ease, grace, truth and authenticity is where abundance resides. I release all resistance to attracting money. I am worthy of a positive cash flow. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

30. I love experiencing every age. I rejoice in each passing year.

03. Apr
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I love my birthday. I love everything about it. I love being the centre of attention, (yup you heard right) and I love receiving presents. What I love most is I love celebrating me with people that I love and cherish. Too often in life we get caught up in our age and how quickly time passes. Sure it does. As the old saying goes, the older we get the quicker time does pass. For me personally time does seem to go by at a ridiculous fast paced rate, but it is what we do with that time that makes the most difference. More importantly it is the way we feel and act towards our beautiful self that is the most sacred and important. Our world is simply a reflection of who we are. If we are able to see beauty in ourselves then we can see beauty all around us.

This morning as I plucked the excess hair from my eyebrows, I undeniably noticed the hair on my upper lip glaring back at me with the morning sun. I looked up around my face and noticed the white hair poking around. I rolled my eyes and started to groan at the reflection looking back at me. Then I stopped and caught myself at what I was doing. Sure I need a pluck and a wax but I shouldn’t have to start the day not liking at what I see in the mirror. So as I caught myself about to berate what I saw in the mirror I looked back and saw a beautiful wise woman. So instead this is what I told myself and even though in that moment I may not have felt it entirely, the thoughts I had instantly shifted to being brighter and lighter.

I caught up with a friend this morning. Soul sisters are the mirrors in our lives and although they cannot pick you up, they sure can extend their hands and help lift you up. They sit by your side, hug you, laugh or cry with you and allow you to believe again when you can’t for yourself. What came up the most and always does is the way we treat and loves ourselves, especially when there is “stuff” going on in our lives. I know for me in the last month I have not looked after myself nor I have been loving and kind on myself. My thoughts have been reckless and negative and I have chosen to recluse for a little. That is cool as long as I am recognising what it is that I am doing and do not choose to stay there.

So when I read the affirmation for today it was such an awesome reminder about loving me for who I am and all that I can be. To rejoice and celebrate in the magnificence of each year for it is truly a blessing that we have a beating heart. Who gives a F&(*K if I have hair on my upper lip, eyebrows that need plucking and white hair. I am fabulously me and I love, honour and cherish ALL of me. Some days are tougher than others and that is cool. This is the fabulous learning of life and what joy it is. I love experiencing every age. I rejoice in each passing year. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

28. I am a Divine conduit for transforming the quality of people’s lives.

26. Mar
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When I looked at the affirmation for today I wanted to flick it to tomorrow (and I did). The affirmation for tomorrow is about loving my job. I sat and pondered. I thought I could take the easy road, stay in my comfort zone or push myself to write today. It would be easy peasy lemon squeezy to write about loving my job because I simply do. As I sit here and think about the affirmation for today, I want to laugh sarcastically at myself and then I want to say to the universe, really??? I know that writing for me is one of the best creative outlets that I have and it grounds me to being real.

I was just speaking to my sisters a little earlier and we were speaking about my aunt and uncle that have just lost their dear daughter to suicide. It is almost coming up to three weeks now since she decided to leave our earthly realm and the sadness is overwhelming. There are times when I feel like I am gasping for air at the harsh reality that now lies before us. There are so many things that run through my head at any one given time and my emotions are all over the place. One day I want to change the world and the next I want to hide under the doona and pretend that it hasn’t happened. I am just rolling with it and honouring what it is that is going on for me.

So when I read the affirmation for today I thought about “stuff”. Sure I could have written about what I have done in the past. It would have been easy, but easy and comfort zone doesn’t get me anywhere. What I am aware of is the language that I am using. My aunt also passed away earlier this year and I caught myself saying today “what a shitty year it has already been” In less than three months we have lost two family members but rather than saying it has been shitty I can choose to say that there has been death and sadness but so much more in between. Sure it has been tough but the focus of my intentions is what is important.

For my aunt, uncle and cousins I have no answers or saving grace for them. The pain that they now live with may be forever but I have to believe that there is a divine reason for all this happening. How do I be a divine conduit? The only answer I have is to be authentic and transparent. To always come from a place of love and compassion and to be still with them in moments when they cannot for themselves. Death has a way of allowing you to stop, breathe and really evaluate what matters most in your life. For me I know that this is an area of my life that I do appreciate and constantly review. Every day is a gift and it is how we choose to spend it that matters most in the end. Already there has been revelations in my life and what may have mattered before does no longer in the best possible way. To find gratitude for the abundance and goodness that I receive each and every day and beyond is the true blessing in life. I am divine conduit for transforming the quality of people’s lives. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

25. I only work for people who respect and honour their employees.

I can truly write this affirmation with every morsel of my heart and know how true this is and how blessed I am. Beside my computer sits a jar which was a gift from my boss who is also a cherished and dear friend. The gift was for Christmas and in it are bits of paper with things that my co-workers have written about me. They are beautiful compliments and words that have been designed to inspire and uplift me whenever I feel the need. Right now as I go through a time in my life which is difficult, I am filled with so much gratitude for such a simple idea that is truly heartfelt and real.

We are truly like a little family and we have so much honour and respect for one another and for all that we bring into each other’s lives. I can be my true authentic self each and every day and I know that I am loved and accepted unconditionally. Whether I am happy, sad, tired, grumpy or emotional I am so supported and for me this is one of the greatest gifts in my life.

We laugh; we share tears and so many other things in between. What I love and respect the most is the support that we offer each other not only in our professional lives but our personal journey. The last month or so has been tough for me for a myriad of reasons and life continues to throw challenges that are to say the least difficult. What I know is the love and care that I am shown through these times and it fills my heart with so much joy and gratitude. They accept my premenstrual moods, my moments of crazy when I am being dramatic, my quirks and I know that no matter what happens I feel their unconditional love and support. They know when my buttons have been pushed; they know what to say at the perfect time and most importantly when I need a big fat hug to make everything better again. They know when my limits have been pushed, when I haven’t had enough sleep, when I am hungry and no matter what they always encourage me to be the best version of me.

I feel so lucky to have this support and know for me this is such an important part of life. They are truly my family who I love dearly and I know how much I am loved and appreciated right back. I am so grateful for the friendship, the laughter, the way we look after one another and for being in such an awesome place to work. I only work for people who respect and honour their employees. Blessed be and so it is and so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

23. Unconditional love and acceptance are the best gifts I can give and receive.

03. Mar
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The feeling of unconditional love is a one that is sacred, raw and beautiful. To love unconditionally is one of the greatest gifts that you can give yourself and others. One of my most important lessons in life is to know that I am worthy of unconditional love. This was not always something that I believed that I was worthy of nor did I feel deserving of it. I was always trying to change aspects of self that I felt were not good enough to make others happy especially in my relationships. It was until such a time in my own life when I went deep into self-discovery, learnt to accept all parts of self that I truly felt that I am so worthy and deserving of unconditional love, just as we all are. I no longer feel that I need to change to “fit” in with others rather I have come to accept that I am perfect and whole just the way I am. That doesn’t mean that I put myself on a pedestal or feel that I am better than anybody else. What I do know is that when I come from a place of compassion and love for others then in turn I am able to love myself and others unconditionally.

My life and the circle of people that surround me is based on a foundation of unconditional love. I love myself enough to know that this is the ultimate gift that I can give myself and others. It doesn’t mean that I stop learning and healing, it simply means that I recognise when I am not and challenge myself to be on the path of unconditional love and compassion always. Don’t get me wrong I still get myself worked up in tangents and can become a raving lunatic. My drama queen ego comes out to play but ultimately it gets me nowhere. In fact it makes me tired and my energy feels like crap. It actually serves me no purpose other than to recognise that I am not in my truth nor I am coming from unconditional love for myself and others. For if I am living and feeling unconditional love and acceptance my life is free flowing with grace and ease, when I am not then not so much!

Sending unconditional love to people and situations that have caused you harm or grief can often be one of the most challenging aspects of unconditional love and acceptance that I have felt so far. There are times when I haven’t felt like giving unconditional love to the tool that pissed me off! I want to be pissed off. What I am able to recognise through this feeling is that the only person that I am harming through this process is me. My buttons have been pushed for a reason and the lesson in the feelings that have emerged is often what the gift is. It is the gift of acceptance and healing and this is by far the greatest feeling of unconditional love to experience. Unconditional love and acceptance are the best gifts I can give and receive. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

Just like the bright sun, I am radiant being. Others feel safe and warm in my presence.

I have to have a laugh at the affirmation today because I was far from being a bright sun. It is not a joyful laugh but an almost psychotic shrill at the irony of what the affirmation means for me right now. I almost contemplated not writing today but as my writing is about compassion I thought I would walk my talk and recognise that each experience is one that I can learn from. I had far from pleasant interactions today and if you asked those that spent the day with me I am not quite sure that that would have described me as a bright sun or feeling warm and safe in my presence. Jokes aside I actually love the way the universe presents me with what is important each and every time. For the situations that caused me grief today, thanks for reminding me that life is about embracing the good, bad and the ugly and today ugly reared its head. In fact I just told the telemarketer on the phone that I had a shitty day and if he was happy to bear the brunt of my crap then I would happily speak to him. He declined and hung up.

I am proud of my dark side and funnily (or not so funny) I dressed in all black today something that I do not normally do. It is all about perception I suppose. I am learning to embrace and love all parts of self and to honour that ALL of me with love and respect. Yes I am premenstrual, yes I am tired and yes the full moon is coming. Sure there are days when “stuff” doesn’t flow and the universe forces up to step up and review what is important. What is not important is drama and stories. I can either choose to get sucked up in the whirlwind of crap or see today for what it was, a shitty day that teaches me about compassion. It may take me a while to find compassion for this one but what I do know is that personal responsibility for the way that we act and treat others is primarily ours.

What today taught me is that life more than ever is about precious humanity. I do not want to spend my days or life in drama of my own or of other. (unless of course I am on the stage performing in a famous kind of cabaret show). Every person or situation is a mirror. The triggers that are presented allow us to see the viewpoint of where in our lives this may have been similar. I am sure that there was a time in my life where I did not take personal responsibility and create drama any way I could in fact I am sure of it. But I live and learn. I know today was a reminder from the universe to review my life purpose and focus. I can choose to get caught up in the actions of another or I can focus on the unconditional love and most beautiful hug that I received that made today so worthwhile. Just like the bright sun, I am radiant being. Others feel safe and warm in my presence. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

19. I release all things that no longer benefit me: objects, ideas, habits or relationships.

05. Feb
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It is full on to sit here and know that the first month of 2015 has already passed us by and that the 5th day of February has already arrived. This year I decided not to write every day rather when I felt that it was right for me to do. What is far more important for is to live a life coming from my heart space and coming from a place of compassion. For me it was also about releasing an expectation about something that I felt that I had to do every day. The affirmation for today has come at the perfect time as the universe truly works and weaves its magic each and every time.

The message at the beginning of February from the I Can Do It 2015 Louise Hay Calendar states “I have discovered that I am becoming more confident in my daily choices. I know that Life supports me, and I step forward feeling safe and protected” This particular statement coincides beautifully with the affirmation for the day because the more I release what no longer serves the more confident I become with the choices that I make. Life is pretty simply but as human beings we tend to complicate with a whole heap of stuff. We like to critique and over analyse what is going on in our lives, only to leave us drained, feeling stressed and overwhelmed. It serves no purpose if we are creating drama and angst.

The last few years I certainly feel like my life has changed in ways that I am eternally grateful. The most important aspect of discovery is being of service and stepping up and stepping into my authentic self. Being my authentic self and acknowledging all parts of me not just the parts that look and feel good. I have also realised that eating humble pie does not always taste great but far out it is liberating. Taking personal responsibility and understanding that all that has been created is simply a reflection of me allows me to be more confident in what I do. In doing so I am totally safe and protected in all that I do and I know and feel this each and every day. That doesn’t mean that I am a bag of roses and that I am happy clappy 24/7. I still get annoyed and I get crabby but what I don’t do is blame. Sure somebody or something may have triggered a response but if the feeling didn’t dwell in me there would be no reaction.

So when I am confronted with a situation that no longer serves, I am able to thank whatever it is for showing me what it is that I needed to learn. I heard a conversation the other day where an elderly mother was saying to her son that she wishes that there would be no more fighting in the worlds. His response was “it is not realistic”. I judged him and my first response was “you are a tool” if we never imagine what it would feel like then of course it will never be possible. I felt so much love for the elderly mother whose vision it was for to have a world of peace. Then I sunk back into my heart space and sent the son love and compassion in the hope that one day he too will feel that there would be a world with no fighting and filled with peace. I also had to acknowledge that there was a time in me where I had limiting beliefs. Oh how sweet are the lessons of life! Sure he may be limiting to what his beliefs are but if I am calling him a tool it is because I myself have been “a tool” at some point. It is bittersweet. I release all things that no longer benefit me: objects, ideas, habits or relationships. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

Love

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

15. I am always able to make the correct decision. I recognise my own intuitive ability.

Our intuition is our own inner compass yet there are times when we still tend to ignore that gut feeling or inner knowing. Trusting ourselves and what we feel is really important to our soul and being. Ego tends to get in the way and when we are not in our natural state of love our intuition can be mistaken with what our head is thinking. The connection between our head and heart is one that creates grace and life is at ease.

For a very long time I lived in my head and to be perfectly honest it is crap. It creates anxiety, depression and a great platform for mental illness to survive and thrive. Trust me I have all too well about this scenario and it is not pleasant. Furthermore it takes a toll on our bodies and creates stress which leads to disease and we do not live our lives with ease. When we finally can learn to live in our heart space it is one of the most liberating feelings that we are able to experience. It is authentic and it is real.

For me each day leads me more and more to about focusing on compassion towards myself and others and knowing that ultimately we are all connected and that we are all one. This is the way that recognising our own intuition becomes the only way that we do live and ultimately leads to living from a place of truth in all areas of all our lives. This allows us to be free of the masks that we so often wear in order to protect ourselves from feeling what is going on for us. We hide from the truth and find it uncomfortable to live with rejection, betrayal, so on and so forth. Feelings that can only live if we are living with fear due to living a life when we are not being true to ourselves.

So when we consider making the correct decisions for ourselves it is when we are in our truth and living in our heart space that we are guided by our intuition. A place where freedom lives and knowing that whatever the outcome may be at any certain time is exactly where it is meant to be. For me right now, I am listening to my intuition and the way I feel more that I have ever done. By doing so it leads me to places of bliss that I love and learn by. Even if my intuition leads me to a place where my feelings and path may be challenged I know that there is a divine purpose and path. I am always able to make the correct decision. I recognise my own intuitive ability. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

14. Every moment presents a wonderful opportunity to become more of who I am.

The now is all we have, this second this moment. Everything that happened in the past is exactly that anything that is about to happen will. So being the moment and in the now is such a precious gift to give to yourself and to those around you. Being you and the most authentic version of you is even more important. So often we walk through life being versions of what other people want us to be. We are playing the role of other identities that do not serve and ultimately we suffer in our own existence. We sometimes make allowances or find excuses of who we think we should be. When we “should” in our lives it compares to “shitting” on ourselves and not sure bout you but that doesn’t feel pleasant.

Life teaches us so much and each experience and moment that we have teaches us more about who we are. No matter what the experience is good or bad it allows us to show up and be who we really are. How do we know who we really are? I know for me this is something that I continue to discover and only until the separation of my last relationship did that really begin to unravel for me. To be perfectly honest I had thought that I had it all worked it out. My life was fine or as once defined to me (F*D UP INSECURE NEUROTIC EMOTIONAL MESS). It not for me to judge this time in my life and go back and do my head in about but the difference is the way I lead my life now is that I am totally comfortable with who I am. That doesn’t mean I stop learning. Actually it is quite the contrary.

Death of a family member shakes your world and turns it upside down. For me there is still so much to process and that is totally OK. For me it is also about a family that once was now has somebody missing it and life is never quite the same. That doesn’t have to make it bad. Instead what it does for me is to absolutely be me and unapologetically so. That doesn’t mean that I don’t give a rats about anybody else rather it makes me wants to grab life by the reins and live the life that we are meant to live. This means to take risks, make mistakes and love unconditionally. To remove the masks that make us comfortable, to move beyond our comfort zones and to know that being the most authentic version of you is the greatest gift that you can give yourself and to the world in which you live. Every moment presents a wonderful opportunity to become more of who I am. Blessed be and so it is so it is done. Namaste

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

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