3. The world will not be destroyed by those who do evil, but by those who watch them without doing anything. Albert Einstein

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I am assisting someone with an appointment this week. I made contact with the medical practice to follow up the location and appointment time. I was informed that because of my medical status that I was unable to enter the practice and that I would need to wait outside. I informed the staff member that mandates had been revoked and the response was that it was policy. I questioned the ethics of the decision and confirmed that a medical practice was denying an individual access based on their medical choices. The response – “I just follow the rules”.

Quite frankly “I just follow the rules” simply doesn’t cut it anymore. Whilst we are all simply following the rules, the world in which we now live in is one that I no longer recognise. We want to follow rules that are unethical, do not follow a code of conduct and go against the fundamental principles of humanity. Sadly this is not the first time that I have heard this line being thrown around. We claim to care for people and their wellbeing and want to be recognised for being a good human for “following the rules” yet we are happy to turn a blind eye to the mistreatment.

Rather what needs to be recognised is that doctors are bound by APRHA Australian Health Practitioner Regulation Agency. Some of the these directives include;

  • Doctors have a responsibility to protect and promote the health of individuals and the community.
  • Patients trust their doctors because they believe that, as well as being competent, their doctor will not take advantage of them and will display qualities such as integrity, truthfulness, dependability and compassion. [1]

These are only to name a few, yet we don’t seem to question the status quo of our own moral compass and simply do as we have been told especially so in the last two years. Many of us are not in agreeance with the way policies have been navigated yet we continue to comply without any conscious thought of our own behaviour.

I don’t have any solid answers to what we are experiencing in the world right now nor do I claim to know how to change it. What I do know is that the more that we are able to understand ourselves and who we are the more that we are able to live the way in which life was intended. For some this level of acceptance may be justified. For others perhaps it is an opportunity to look deeper within.

When we examine and evaluate our values that we are aligned with yet do not live them in our daily work and practice, I wonder if this is living or simply existing? As Albert Einstein quotes The world will not be destroyed by those who do evil, but by those who watch them without doing anything” To some extent each time we simply “follow the rules” that are not in our alignment or values we must ask ourselves, is this the world that we are choosing?

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia xxo

 

[1] https://www.medicalboard.gov.au/Codes-Guidelines-Policies/Code-of-conduct.aspx

2. If it doesn’t challenge you, it won’t change you

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I have been blogging on and off for the last 8 or so years. Writing for me is a place where I feel that I can truly come home to express and process. It has taken me a while to want to start writing again as the last 12 or so months I had been very disconnected. Was this fun? NO! Was it exactly what I potentially needed to get to the change that was required? ABSOLUTLEY YES! What I do know is that through these times of disconnect, writing was probably the last thing that I wanted to do. I did some journaling on some occasions but for the most part I had very little energy to partake in anything.

I have questioned and wondered whether or not I continue with my blogs and for now I have come to the conclusion that I will. For me it is an opportunity to connect with others and perhaps for another to not feel so isolated in their thoughts and emotions. When I came across the quote that I wanted to write about I almost didn’t because at times I feel that there is a lot of toxic positivity that we tend to swirl around in. Trust me I know this process all too well as I was the queen on wanting to turn every negative interaction or experience into a positive one. I even blogged about it for 365 days in earlier years.

So what has changed? Everything and nothing! Everything that we once knew has been turned inside out in the last couple of years. I was saying to a friend earlier, just as you feel that one layer has been exposed and you have time to heal and ground, there is another challenge and opportunity that presents. I feel that these days the lessons tend to come in thick and fast and in polarity they can move on just as quickly. What I know to be true is what is alive in my world. What is in yours is different and we have truly become our own teacher. I question all I have learned along the way and now make decisions from this space, time and knowing. It is uncovering the depths of the shadow so that it can fully be transmuted to light. What we continually uncover and learn about the world that we exist in can at times be unsettling. Now more than every community and connection is paramount.

So whatever it is that may or may not be challenging in your world right now, you don’t have to put a positive spin on it right away. You don’t have to send it love and light you don’t have do anything but simply be you and know that in the challenge, there is growth however that may look. It’s time that we take reverence on the inner wisdom and connect to create the change we want to see and be in the world.

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia xxo

1. Remember Who You Are

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I have been missing from my blog for some time. Life has certainly been happening and I have been presented with lots of twists and turns along the way. A blog post possibly won’t justify where and how I’ve journeyed the last year, so for now my intention is to simply be present with what is. It sounds great in theory and truly an art to manifest. If anything the last two years have taught us that being present is all we really have. The world as we knew it is no longer and in some ways that is worth celebrating.

What I can say is the last couple of years for me have been an absolute shit show. The lessons profound, quick and at times feel like you have fallen flat on your face with little room to breathe. I am not going to sugar coat or promote that everything happens for a reason or that the mess has become the message. To be perfectly honest everything I have once known doesn’t seem to matter anymore and all I know for certain is what is present in the here and now. What is real and what is not for each and every one of us.

What I am learning again is to trust. Disconnection to self and living in our current climate has been fkn hard (well for me it has been). I have struggled for the last 18 months or so big time and I have questioned time and time again what it is all truly about. Big questions I know and not ones that I have solid answers for. What was is no longer and what I have believed to be true and real is in fact, merely a distraction.

So for now what I feel to be real and true is to be simply in my light and darkness. I have sat in the murkiness and glory of my darkness for a while now. I didn’t rush the process, I didn’t force myself to feel better and I certainly didn’t practice positivity. In fact I did the opposite and accepted myself for where I was in those moments. The grace of time is allowing me to uncover the gifts that I am surely and slowly unwrapping, but this time I am in no hurry.

To truly surrender to what is, to remember who I am and why I am here. I am not going to profess that by any means of the imagination that I have it all worked out. Trust me I don’t, however what I do know is what exists is no longer working. I am tired of the old paradigm that we have lived in for so long and perhaps it is simply time to create a new one. A world where we tap into the ancient wisdom and inner knowing, remembering who we truly are.

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia xxo

 

3. I celebrate my unity with all life knowing we are one

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The current state of what is happening in our world at the moment is far from pleasant. An issue that has been weighing heavily on my heart is the divide that continues to happen. Whilst we all want to believe that we have good intentions and that we are coming from a place of kindness and compassion for one another, at times it feels to be the contrary, myself included. The amount of divide that is playing out is a pandemic. Connections are being dismantled, abuse being hurled due to lack of understanding, insidious name calling over a difference of opinion, comparisons of trauma all whilst suicide rates are escalating.

Of late I have witnessed dialogue in regards to the comparison of our current situation in Australia to Afghanistan. Let’s make no mistake these issues have been presenting themselves for many years. The fact that it has been splashed all over our social media means that innately we seem to pay more attention. Third world issues have always been prevalent. I visited and volunteered in Cambodia for many years. Most of the population doesn’t have access to health care. Children die from common ailments such as a fever or gastro. On rare occasions when they are able to seek medical attention it is usually after waiting for days, on a floor in a space that is less than hygienic. I have witnessed this. Yet when I wait at my doctor for over an hour I get frustrated that I wasn’t seen on time. I have an expectation that the doctor surgery will have a clean space and that any contaminated products will be dispersed according to the 1st world country that I am currently living in. Does this make me selfish and ungrateful? Perhaps it does? If we apply this principle to what we are currently experiencing in relation to what is happening in Afghanistan compared to Australia, it isn’t just. We can almost apply this to all of our 1st world commodities. There is genuine fear and turmoil due to loss of perceived freedoms. To be empathetic, have an awareness and understanding without negating one experience over the other is an aspect to be considered. Otherwise we are only adding to the trauma.

There has been a lot of comparison that protestors were selfish and that their understanding of true freedom cannot be compared. No it cannot be compared; we don’t live in a third world country. Hopefully we will never know. It is all good and well to have an opinion and opposing view and one in which to we are all entitled to. However what isn’t helpful is telling someone that they should simply be grateful that the situation in Australia is not the same as the one in Afghanistan. This has a fall on effect and only compounds the mental health crisis we are already experiencing. Whilst this issue has been raised due to recent protests of freedom, there are so many complexities to navigate. Are we are able to find the courage to take a deeper look inside our own moral high ground and compass for humanity? For when we are in a place of discernment and humility, it is then that the narrative that is presented is unable to waiver the truth of a united collective and restoration begins.

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia xxo

2. If you want to awaken all of humanity, awaken all of yourself. Lao Tzu

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Our world and lives as we know it seems to be ever evolving. There is so much going on that at times it feels overwhelming. Over a week ago people around the country stood in unison and rallied for their freedom. Freedom to see their loved ones, to work, to roam, to socialise, to no longer be locked up, to have a choice about vaccinating and the list unfortunately goes on. This is by no means a political post, rather a plea to humanity to have a close look at who we are and how we show up in the world. Our own inner work, our most important yet is the foundation. If we are choosing to demoralise someone who has chosen to attend a protest, let’s also make sure that we are not standing in the hypocrisy of our own contradictions. There are some who bellow from the rooftops on how much they are doing for humanity but then create disharmony with those that don’t agree with them. All aspects of health are important and with suicide numbers rising perhaps an opportunity to understand how we contribute to the wellbeing of others.

We are living in such unknown times and now more than ever we should be connecting and creating. Instead I was perplexed about what I read and heard. What I witnessed was large amounts of bullying, name calling, judgement and distaste. This ranged from public figures who also promote anti bullying, politicians and humanity creating a greater divide. We are all somewhat operating from fear. Our fears may be coming from different viewpoints but ultimately they are the same. Understanding where our fears come from may be our biggest work yet. Regardless of a political agenda somehow we have forgotten about kindness, respect, compassion and loyalty to one another.

What has literally caused a head spin is the divide that is currently playing out. You can’t claim to want to vaccinate for humanity and then intimidate another for not doing the same. On the flip side professing love and light and then harassing another who doesn’t have the same viewpoint contradicts the essence of the message. These are very general observations and only scratch the surface of the bigger picture.

When did it become justified to torment one another? Isn’t this what we tell our kids not to do? If we ultimately all just want to feel safe isn’t this a common goal that we can be working towards? We don’t have to all agree but do we need to be compounding the situation? Our world is changing as we know it, whether we like it or not. For every action there is a reaction. Communities and connection are more important now more than ever. Isn’t it time we rise as a collective irrespective of our differences and work towards a common goal of peace, freedom and love for all. #connect2createchange#

 

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia xxo

15. COURAGE, COMPASSION & CONNECTION

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I have been fleetingly picking up books of late and came across The Gifts of Imperfection by Brene Brown. I didn’t read it from cover to cover but I got what I needed at the time. The message I received was about courage, compassion and connection. About 3 months ago I had a breakdown and my mental health wasn’t in a great place. I have always been open and transparent about mental health and am passionate about suicide awareness and prevention. The more we are able to talk about openly and honestly the less isolated we feel.

I was speaking to a colleague today and we both spoke about how we had been feeling. There had been a lack of connection to self, a sense of despair and at times all round questioning what life is about. Her vulnerability allowed me to be open about how I have been feeling and we were simply two souls shining our light on each other. What this allowed me to ponder is that I have refrained from writing my blog lately as I have felt that I haven’t had too much to share. When I am really true and real with myself there has also been a sense of shame attached because I became unwell and I should have known better. I also know that negative self-talk isn’t helpful at all to my emotional wellbeing.

This year has been tough for so many of us and for a myriad of reason. There is so much unknown and the uncertainty wavering. What I know now is simply the present moment. I have come to visit my family in Melbourne. I am grateful that I am able to do this. The not knowing of when I would see them proved too much for me at the time. Self-care seemed to take a back seat and it wasn’t long before I had depleted myself. Is it good\bad, right\wrong? What I do know from this space is that there can only be growth. What I also know is that being open, honest and transparent is far easier than pretending. Having the courage to simply be and show up exactly as we are is all we ever have to be.

What I am also learning is compassion. I seemed to have forgotten this for myself in the last couple of months. I have tried to work it out and simply just get better but life doesn’t always work out the way we plan. Connection and compassion to self is a lesson that I am learning and perhaps it is a place that I have visited before but now from a different space. The world as I knew it even 12 months ago is no longer and what worked for me then feels different now. I don’t have it all worked out but what I do know is that courage, connection and compassion are important values for this moment in time. When this is the energy that I can recognise for myself then it is what I can see in the world. Blessed be and so it is. Thank you.

 

#2020#connect2createchange#

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia xxo

14. I am willing to release the pattern in me that is creating and negative conditions in my life.

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Healing, growing and learning is an aspect of life that we are always visiting. Personal responsibility is one of my greatest values and a quality that I admire in others. When we are able to look at a situation from a perspective that offers a different viewpoint it is also able to release patterns of negativity. I know for me one of the greatest challenges is the way in which I view the world at the moment. Having lived in Melbourne for most of my life it has been terribly difficult to view what has been going on without negativity and distaste.

 

How do we navigate what is going on in the world without being negative? I am not a fan of toxic positivity either. We simply can’t smile, say an affirmation and hope for the best. I know that this week for me stirred a response especially when I heard the news that a race affiliated to Melbourne Cup was going to go ahead. Why this was even contemplated made absolutely no sense to me. A week prior I watched a friend’s mum funeral where grandchildren were not able to attend. The pews at the back of the church were completely empty. The grandchildren potentially all could be seated safely distanced and adhered to the current guidelines. This was not allowed. Yet a horserace was being organised and more than 10 people being allowed to attend. Is this the current climate in which we want to live?

 

The decision for the horse race to occur was overturned. Voices were heard and some kind of rational mentality was implemented. As far as I was concerned the damage was done and the fact that this particular race was contemplated indicates that the restoration of humanity is far down the list of agenda items. For me this also indicates hope and that all of our actions matter. All of our voices deserve to be heard no matter how fragile or vulnerable they may be.

 

I know that I can’t continue to be angry with what is going on in the world. I can’t be led by frustration and negative patterns of helplessness instead I can focus my attention outwards to the many attributes of how I can be the change that I want to see in the world. If I remain the same and just pour out anger and distaste this is what will simply follow. Instead if I can connect back to my own inner light and sit with whatever is going on for me then I can connect back to the true essence of who I am and why I am here. Is it easy or fun to sit in the uncomfortableness of negativity? Pretty sure that is a no but what I do know that from this space there is growth and hope. What I do know is that the world needs our light more than ever. Blessed be and so it is. Thank you.

 

#2020#connect2createchange#

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia xxo

13. No one gets to choose for me. I make my own choices

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I went to a counselling session a few months ago. I was feeling very overwhelmed with life and not being able to see my family. My family is all based in Melbourne and I live on the Gold Coast. I have been living here for over 3 years. What I love most is that I could literally jump on a plane and be there in 2 hours and could do so every 8 weeks or so. I was explaining to the counsellor that I felt like my choice had been taken away. She disagreed. She explained that I did have a choice and that if I needed to get to Melbourne I could. To be perfectly honest she frustrated me with her answer so I didn’t explore what she said any further.

The reality is I can’t get on a plane and see my family when I choose and giving people perspectives in these situations isn’t always helpful as it doesn’t validate what is going on for the person. I have had endless discussion with people about choice especially when it comes to the pandemic that globally we are experiencing. For me it feels that our choices have been stripped from our very eyes and as a collective we are allowing it. Our government now chooses how we celebrate life, death and everything else in between.

I have stopped trying to allow other to understand my viewpoint and it is no longer my business. What I get to choose now is how I feel about certain areas of my life and. I’m tired of the polarity of arguments that is caused by what has been perceived to be either right or wrong instead of humanity rising in unity consciousness. For a long while I had been pouring a lot of energy into prochoice and in the process a massive cull of so called friends. That is OK. I understand that I am not here to be loved by everybody. I am simply here advocating for choice. So what we do get to choose is our thoughts and within that there also has to be a process.

For me right now I have no control or choice about getting to Melbourne. The borders are closed and I am basically not allowed in. Do I need to be positive and happy about it? No I don’t. I’ve listened to personal stories of people only being allowed to spend hours with their loved ones before they pass. Being forced to have the flu vaccination so that can see their parents in care and legislation that requires you to wear a mask even if you are in the middle of nowhere with no one around. So I choose action and in that I choose to connect further to how I can serve humanity.

What is my responsibility? What is my responsibility to my community? I am sure it is not being an angry bird and shouting posts of injustice (Although I have done) For me it is about connection to self, to come from a deeper understanding of who we are and what we are doing on this planet. Choosing what we want our lives to look like and taking action in doing so. If we are not taking the small steps towards ourselves and the community what hope do we have do rise in unity consciousness for the greater good? Whilst the light within is still burning there is always a choice of hope.

2020#connect2createchange#.

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia

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12. I create a bubble of ease around me when I travel

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Creating a bubble of ease feels pretty pertinent to me right now. I live on the Gold Coast and for most of the time the energy is light and vibrant. However this is not always the case. A few days ago I visited Centrelink for a client. I was attempting to advocate and was abruptly greeted by a security guard who requested information. I was then asked the same questions only seconds later by a Centrelink staff member. There were no salutations, no smile and no sign of human connection. I was perplexed as to why the same questions needed to occur. I’m not entirely sure how the information that I presented about cold\flu like symptoms or questions about travel could have changed from the front door to the front desk.

By this time my energy felt heightened and there was no bubble of ease. I get it everyone in the world seems to be under huge amounts of stress and government officials are simply trying to follow instructions. What I am curious about is how does the simplicity of connection get lost through translation? Why couldn’t there be a smile? Why couldn’t the questions be asked in a more dignified manner opposed to barking orders? How do we navigate this world right now with ease?

For me my senses are heightened. I become anxious in harsh settings so I am finding new ways to create a bubble of ease when I travel to complete daily work and personal tasks. For my Melbourne family and friends I know this is an area that has become somewhat normal. I am finding our new so called “normal” confronting and somewhat suffocating. The signs that remind us not to stand too close, the arrows on the floors that dictate which way we are meant to be walking and the screens behind each counter that are protecting us from the spread of further infection.

So how do we travel with ease when it seems that as a collective we are somewhat divided? How do we continue to come from a place of love when we can have such opposing views in regards to what is happening in our universe? I am tired of debating what is true to me. It saddens me that I don’t know when I will see my family next. My soul hurts that so many are suffering because of restrictions. It is a cruel and harsh reality that we cannot celebrate life and death in ways that we are accustomed. We are all affected in one way or another but what we do have is compassion, what we do have is spirit and what we do have is a beating heart that reminds us that we are alive. A heart that sings true to the collective response of unity in consciousness and a reminder of being leaders of hope in all that we do.

2020#connect2createchange#.

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia xxo

#connect2createchange#

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I know that whoever is meant to be reading this will. It is such an exciting time in our lives when we can truly know and feel that we are part of unified consciousness to bring forth the light to this planet. What does this mean to me? 20 years ago after I experienced a vision of a deceased love one. His message was to simply speak my truth. So I did. Weeks later the marriage I was in broke down and I was later hospitalized because life was simply too much. I was admitted for being delusional and presenting with mania.

For the last 20 years it feels that I have been enrolled into the University of Life so that I have come to know and understand my own light and soul purpose in this world. All I know right now is that the world needs more light and healing than ever before. Is this one thing that as a collective we can simply agree on regardless of what we believe? Can we truly see and feel that the light within me is simply the light within you and that we are all connected as one.

We are currently in a global pandemic or so we are being told and I am not sure about you but I am really physically tired of trying to explain to people that something simply feels off. Instead it has turned into a shit storm of governments, vaccinations, masks, dictatorship and the list goes on and on. Where I can find peace is to truly know and understand my purpose. None of us have any idea what is going to happen and to be perfectly honest if we are leaving it up to the current leaders of the world it also doesn’t feel very hopeful. However what does feel hopeful is what we can imagine.

I haven’t always had courage to tell the world that I was hospitalized in a psychiatric ward because of fear of being ridiculed. Instead what I know now is what others think and feel of me is simply none of my business. Who am I? Who are you? Who are we? We are light beings of love having a human experience at this time. What is our role and responsibility to ourselves, our family, and our communities? Who and what are we representing right now? With our governments being in such disarray who will we choose to follow? Or is this simply an unfolding of our current systems crumbling because we need to rebuild? I don’t want things to go back to normal. Our existence prior was nothing short of normal. Consumerism, starvation, homelessness, domestic violence, rising numbers in suicide and our ageing communities suffering in ways that are beyond an explanation. Is this what we want to go back to? Once we can truly feel and know that we are in fact our own shining light for our path then we can we can create the change that we want to be in the world.

2020#connect2createchange#.

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia xxo