3. I celebrate my unity with all life knowing we are one

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The current state of what is happening in our world at the moment is far from pleasant. An issue that has been weighing heavily on my heart is the divide that continues to happen. Whilst we all want to believe that we have good intentions and that we are coming from a place of kindness and compassion for one another, at times it feels to be the contrary, myself included. The amount of divide that is playing out is a pandemic. Connections are being dismantled, abuse being hurled due to lack of understanding, insidious name calling over a difference of opinion, comparisons of trauma all whilst suicide rates are escalating.

Of late I have witnessed dialogue in regards to the comparison of our current situation in Australia to Afghanistan. Let’s make no mistake these issues have been presenting themselves for many years. The fact that it has been splashed all over our social media means that innately we seem to pay more attention. Third world issues have always been prevalent. I visited and volunteered in Cambodia for many years. Most of the population doesn’t have access to health care. Children die from common ailments such as a fever or gastro. On rare occasions when they are able to seek medical attention it is usually after waiting for days, on a floor in a space that is less than hygienic. I have witnessed this. Yet when I wait at my doctor for over an hour I get frustrated that I wasn’t seen on time. I have an expectation that the doctor surgery will have a clean space and that any contaminated products will be dispersed according to the 1st world country that I am currently living in. Does this make me selfish and ungrateful? Perhaps it does? If we apply this principle to what we are currently experiencing in relation to what is happening in Afghanistan compared to Australia, it isn’t just. We can almost apply this to all of our 1st world commodities. There is genuine fear and turmoil due to loss of perceived freedoms. To be empathetic, have an awareness and understanding without negating one experience over the other is an aspect to be considered. Otherwise we are only adding to the trauma.

There has been a lot of comparison that protestors were selfish and that their understanding of true freedom cannot be compared. No it cannot be compared; we don’t live in a third world country. Hopefully we will never know. It is all good and well to have an opinion and opposing view and one in which to we are all entitled to. However what isn’t helpful is telling someone that they should simply be grateful that the situation in Australia is not the same as the one in Afghanistan. This has a fall on effect and only compounds the mental health crisis we are already experiencing. Whilst this issue has been raised due to recent protests of freedom, there are so many complexities to navigate. Are we are able to find the courage to take a deeper look inside our own moral high ground and compass for humanity? For when we are in a place of discernment and humility, it is then that the narrative that is presented is unable to waiver the truth of a united collective and restoration begins.

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia xxo

2. If you want to awaken all of humanity, awaken all of yourself. Lao Tzu

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Our world and lives as we know it seems to be ever evolving. There is so much going on that at times it feels overwhelming. Over a week ago people around the country stood in unison and rallied for their freedom. Freedom to see their loved ones, to work, to roam, to socialise, to no longer be locked up, to have a choice about vaccinating and the list unfortunately goes on. This is by no means a political post, rather a plea to humanity to have a close look at who we are and how we show up in the world. Our own inner work, our most important yet is the foundation. If we are choosing to demoralise someone who has chosen to attend a protest, let’s also make sure that we are not standing in the hypocrisy of our own contradictions. There are some who bellow from the rooftops on how much they are doing for humanity but then create disharmony with those that don’t agree with them. All aspects of health are important and with suicide numbers rising perhaps an opportunity to understand how we contribute to the wellbeing of others.

We are living in such unknown times and now more than ever we should be connecting and creating. Instead I was perplexed about what I read and heard. What I witnessed was large amounts of bullying, name calling, judgement and distaste. This ranged from public figures who also promote anti bullying, politicians and humanity creating a greater divide. We are all somewhat operating from fear. Our fears may be coming from different viewpoints but ultimately they are the same. Understanding where our fears come from may be our biggest work yet. Regardless of a political agenda somehow we have forgotten about kindness, respect, compassion and loyalty to one another.

What has literally caused a head spin is the divide that is currently playing out. You can’t claim to want to vaccinate for humanity and then intimidate another for not doing the same. On the flip side professing love and light and then harassing another who doesn’t have the same viewpoint contradicts the essence of the message. These are very general observations and only scratch the surface of the bigger picture.

When did it become justified to torment one another? Isn’t this what we tell our kids not to do? If we ultimately all just want to feel safe isn’t this a common goal that we can be working towards? We don’t have to all agree but do we need to be compounding the situation? Our world is changing as we know it, whether we like it or not. For every action there is a reaction. Communities and connection are more important now more than ever. Isn’t it time we rise as a collective irrespective of our differences and work towards a common goal of peace, freedom and love for all. #connect2createchange#

 

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia xxo

15. COURAGE, COMPASSION & CONNECTION

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I have been fleetingly picking up books of late and came across The Gifts of Imperfection by Brene Brown. I didn’t read it from cover to cover but I got what I needed at the time. The message I received was about courage, compassion and connection. About 3 months ago I had a breakdown and my mental health wasn’t in a great place. I have always been open and transparent about mental health and am passionate about suicide awareness and prevention. The more we are able to talk about openly and honestly the less isolated we feel.

I was speaking to a colleague today and we both spoke about how we had been feeling. There had been a lack of connection to self, a sense of despair and at times all round questioning what life is about. Her vulnerability allowed me to be open about how I have been feeling and we were simply two souls shining our light on each other. What this allowed me to ponder is that I have refrained from writing my blog lately as I have felt that I haven’t had too much to share. When I am really true and real with myself there has also been a sense of shame attached because I became unwell and I should have known better. I also know that negative self-talk isn’t helpful at all to my emotional wellbeing.

This year has been tough for so many of us and for a myriad of reason. There is so much unknown and the uncertainty wavering. What I know now is simply the present moment. I have come to visit my family in Melbourne. I am grateful that I am able to do this. The not knowing of when I would see them proved too much for me at the time. Self-care seemed to take a back seat and it wasn’t long before I had depleted myself. Is it good\bad, right\wrong? What I do know from this space is that there can only be growth. What I also know is that being open, honest and transparent is far easier than pretending. Having the courage to simply be and show up exactly as we are is all we ever have to be.

What I am also learning is compassion. I seemed to have forgotten this for myself in the last couple of months. I have tried to work it out and simply just get better but life doesn’t always work out the way we plan. Connection and compassion to self is a lesson that I am learning and perhaps it is a place that I have visited before but now from a different space. The world as I knew it even 12 months ago is no longer and what worked for me then feels different now. I don’t have it all worked out but what I do know is that courage, connection and compassion are important values for this moment in time. When this is the energy that I can recognise for myself then it is what I can see in the world. Blessed be and so it is. Thank you.

 

#2020#connect2createchange#

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia xxo

14. I am willing to release the pattern in me that is creating and negative conditions in my life.

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Healing, growing and learning is an aspect of life that we are always visiting. Personal responsibility is one of my greatest values and a quality that I admire in others. When we are able to look at a situation from a perspective that offers a different viewpoint it is also able to release patterns of negativity. I know for me one of the greatest challenges is the way in which I view the world at the moment. Having lived in Melbourne for most of my life it has been terribly difficult to view what has been going on without negativity and distaste.

 

How do we navigate what is going on in the world without being negative? I am not a fan of toxic positivity either. We simply can’t smile, say an affirmation and hope for the best. I know that this week for me stirred a response especially when I heard the news that a race affiliated to Melbourne Cup was going to go ahead. Why this was even contemplated made absolutely no sense to me. A week prior I watched a friend’s mum funeral where grandchildren were not able to attend. The pews at the back of the church were completely empty. The grandchildren potentially all could be seated safely distanced and adhered to the current guidelines. This was not allowed. Yet a horserace was being organised and more than 10 people being allowed to attend. Is this the current climate in which we want to live?

 

The decision for the horse race to occur was overturned. Voices were heard and some kind of rational mentality was implemented. As far as I was concerned the damage was done and the fact that this particular race was contemplated indicates that the restoration of humanity is far down the list of agenda items. For me this also indicates hope and that all of our actions matter. All of our voices deserve to be heard no matter how fragile or vulnerable they may be.

 

I know that I can’t continue to be angry with what is going on in the world. I can’t be led by frustration and negative patterns of helplessness instead I can focus my attention outwards to the many attributes of how I can be the change that I want to see in the world. If I remain the same and just pour out anger and distaste this is what will simply follow. Instead if I can connect back to my own inner light and sit with whatever is going on for me then I can connect back to the true essence of who I am and why I am here. Is it easy or fun to sit in the uncomfortableness of negativity? Pretty sure that is a no but what I do know that from this space there is growth and hope. What I do know is that the world needs our light more than ever. Blessed be and so it is. Thank you.

 

#2020#connect2createchange#

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia xxo

13. No one gets to choose for me. I make my own choices

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I went to a counselling session a few months ago. I was feeling very overwhelmed with life and not being able to see my family. My family is all based in Melbourne and I live on the Gold Coast. I have been living here for over 3 years. What I love most is that I could literally jump on a plane and be there in 2 hours and could do so every 8 weeks or so. I was explaining to the counsellor that I felt like my choice had been taken away. She disagreed. She explained that I did have a choice and that if I needed to get to Melbourne I could. To be perfectly honest she frustrated me with her answer so I didn’t explore what she said any further.

The reality is I can’t get on a plane and see my family when I choose and giving people perspectives in these situations isn’t always helpful as it doesn’t validate what is going on for the person. I have had endless discussion with people about choice especially when it comes to the pandemic that globally we are experiencing. For me it feels that our choices have been stripped from our very eyes and as a collective we are allowing it. Our government now chooses how we celebrate life, death and everything else in between.

I have stopped trying to allow other to understand my viewpoint and it is no longer my business. What I get to choose now is how I feel about certain areas of my life and. I’m tired of the polarity of arguments that is caused by what has been perceived to be either right or wrong instead of humanity rising in unity consciousness. For a long while I had been pouring a lot of energy into prochoice and in the process a massive cull of so called friends. That is OK. I understand that I am not here to be loved by everybody. I am simply here advocating for choice. So what we do get to choose is our thoughts and within that there also has to be a process.

For me right now I have no control or choice about getting to Melbourne. The borders are closed and I am basically not allowed in. Do I need to be positive and happy about it? No I don’t. I’ve listened to personal stories of people only being allowed to spend hours with their loved ones before they pass. Being forced to have the flu vaccination so that can see their parents in care and legislation that requires you to wear a mask even if you are in the middle of nowhere with no one around. So I choose action and in that I choose to connect further to how I can serve humanity.

What is my responsibility? What is my responsibility to my community? I am sure it is not being an angry bird and shouting posts of injustice (Although I have done) For me it is about connection to self, to come from a deeper understanding of who we are and what we are doing on this planet. Choosing what we want our lives to look like and taking action in doing so. If we are not taking the small steps towards ourselves and the community what hope do we have do rise in unity consciousness for the greater good? Whilst the light within is still burning there is always a choice of hope.

2020#connect2createchange#.

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia

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12. I create a bubble of ease around me when I travel

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Creating a bubble of ease feels pretty pertinent to me right now. I live on the Gold Coast and for most of the time the energy is light and vibrant. However this is not always the case. A few days ago I visited Centrelink for a client. I was attempting to advocate and was abruptly greeted by a security guard who requested information. I was then asked the same questions only seconds later by a Centrelink staff member. There were no salutations, no smile and no sign of human connection. I was perplexed as to why the same questions needed to occur. I’m not entirely sure how the information that I presented about cold\flu like symptoms or questions about travel could have changed from the front door to the front desk.

By this time my energy felt heightened and there was no bubble of ease. I get it everyone in the world seems to be under huge amounts of stress and government officials are simply trying to follow instructions. What I am curious about is how does the simplicity of connection get lost through translation? Why couldn’t there be a smile? Why couldn’t the questions be asked in a more dignified manner opposed to barking orders? How do we navigate this world right now with ease?

For me my senses are heightened. I become anxious in harsh settings so I am finding new ways to create a bubble of ease when I travel to complete daily work and personal tasks. For my Melbourne family and friends I know this is an area that has become somewhat normal. I am finding our new so called “normal” confronting and somewhat suffocating. The signs that remind us not to stand too close, the arrows on the floors that dictate which way we are meant to be walking and the screens behind each counter that are protecting us from the spread of further infection.

So how do we travel with ease when it seems that as a collective we are somewhat divided? How do we continue to come from a place of love when we can have such opposing views in regards to what is happening in our universe? I am tired of debating what is true to me. It saddens me that I don’t know when I will see my family next. My soul hurts that so many are suffering because of restrictions. It is a cruel and harsh reality that we cannot celebrate life and death in ways that we are accustomed. We are all affected in one way or another but what we do have is compassion, what we do have is spirit and what we do have is a beating heart that reminds us that we are alive. A heart that sings true to the collective response of unity in consciousness and a reminder of being leaders of hope in all that we do.

2020#connect2createchange#.

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia xxo

#connect2createchange#

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I know that whoever is meant to be reading this will. It is such an exciting time in our lives when we can truly know and feel that we are part of unified consciousness to bring forth the light to this planet. What does this mean to me? 20 years ago after I experienced a vision of a deceased love one. His message was to simply speak my truth. So I did. Weeks later the marriage I was in broke down and I was later hospitalized because life was simply too much. I was admitted for being delusional and presenting with mania.

For the last 20 years it feels that I have been enrolled into the University of Life so that I have come to know and understand my own light and soul purpose in this world. All I know right now is that the world needs more light and healing than ever before. Is this one thing that as a collective we can simply agree on regardless of what we believe? Can we truly see and feel that the light within me is simply the light within you and that we are all connected as one.

We are currently in a global pandemic or so we are being told and I am not sure about you but I am really physically tired of trying to explain to people that something simply feels off. Instead it has turned into a shit storm of governments, vaccinations, masks, dictatorship and the list goes on and on. Where I can find peace is to truly know and understand my purpose. None of us have any idea what is going to happen and to be perfectly honest if we are leaving it up to the current leaders of the world it also doesn’t feel very hopeful. However what does feel hopeful is what we can imagine.

I haven’t always had courage to tell the world that I was hospitalized in a psychiatric ward because of fear of being ridiculed. Instead what I know now is what others think and feel of me is simply none of my business. Who am I? Who are you? Who are we? We are light beings of love having a human experience at this time. What is our role and responsibility to ourselves, our family, and our communities? Who and what are we representing right now? With our governments being in such disarray who will we choose to follow? Or is this simply an unfolding of our current systems crumbling because we need to rebuild? I don’t want things to go back to normal. Our existence prior was nothing short of normal. Consumerism, starvation, homelessness, domestic violence, rising numbers in suicide and our ageing communities suffering in ways that are beyond an explanation. Is this what we want to go back to? Once we can truly feel and know that we are in fact our own shining light for our path then we can we can create the change that we want to be in the world.

2020#connect2createchange#.

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia xxo

 

6. Today I move forward with confidence & ease.

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I have struggled to blog lately. One of the “rules” that I imposed on myself is that I would write about living with a compassionate heart even on the days when I didn’t want to. This allows me to see another side. It doesn’t allow me to sit in my crap and lay blame, instead it forces me to sit up and take responsibility for my own creation. Otherwise you would simply be reading a blog about how FKT up it has all felt. Entertaining perhaps but I imagine not so useful.

I read the affirmation for today and pondered how exactly do we move forward with confidence and ease? How can I write about this when I don’t feel confident or at ease with all the events that are taking place right now? Then I felt that this was exactly what I had to write about. The last few weeks have been heavy and unnerving to say the least. I haven’t felt very positive about the world and I have struggled to understand the huge polarity in viewpoints.

Towers in Victoria are being locked down and people are now being detained in their own homes without the liberty of even being able to access an outdoor area. Children entering Victorian schools will now have a temperature gun pointed to their third eye prior to entering a classroom. Masks are now mandatory on public transport. Not sure about you but that doesn’t make me feel at ease. What I do know is that I also don’t want to live in fear and I certainly live with hope that this is not our new normal. So how do I move forward with confidence and ease with compassion?

What I have recognised is what I can do and that is to use my voice. To trust that there is a bigger purpose for us all. To know that I just can’t sit back and expect it to happen and that I have to be a part of the solution and not the problem. Whilst I stay in a state of fear and anger there is nothing that I can do for myself or the world. What I do know is that I can keep being light. I have had endless conversations about what is going on in our world right now. There has been a sense of helplessness that there is nothing that we can do.

#connect2createchange# is a project that I have been working on for a while now. It has changed its direction a few times now but the message is always the same. Connection! Without connection to self we simply just exist. If we stay the same so does the rest of world. If we think we can’t do anything then we won’t. I’m not sure about you but I don’t want to have to wait to be locked in my home to exercise the right to be outside. We take action, we speak up, and we become unafraid to seek justice. We move forward with grace and ease.

 

#2020#connect2createchange#

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia xxo

6. Today is a great day to visualize, imagine, create and produce.

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For the last week or so we have seen the words #blacklivesmatter# plastered all over social media and of course they absolutely do. We have seen and heard the injustices that are currently being played out and we are appalled and rightly so. However why is it only now that we feel that this has been occurring? I want to profess that I am not an expert this is simply what it feels like for me and what I know to be true, that creates a stir in my soul.

As Australians did we know that this week is reconciliation week? Reconciliation week is a time for all Australians to learn about our shared histories, cultures and achievements and how each of us can contribute to achieving reconciliation in Australia. The very same week a mining company blew up a 46,000 year old cave. The irony is beyond insulting. Did we plaster this all over social media or did we not even know that it was reconciliation week? I have also read some alarming posts that people in Australia have not grown up with racism? Have we been living under a rock?

Do we know and understand that in our very communities Aboriginal people are still not accessing services that they are entitled to because they have been treated so poorly in the past. Did you know that we are still not providing inclusion in the services that we provide for the owners and true custodians of our land? Do you know if your workplace has a Reconciliation Action Plan which is a formal statement of your organisation commitment to reconciliation?

I have worked in the NDIS space for a few years. Aboriginal people are still not accessing services that they are entitled to. A reform as huge as the NDIS was not inclusive and considerate of Aboriginal culture and language which continues to disadvantage our communities. I attend meetings and continue to shake my head in disbelief that as “white fellas” we continue to make the same FK ups time and time again. So before we proclaim that we are not racist, how as individuals are we contributing to the same? The systematic racism is rife!

We have been waiting to get back to “normal”; I don’t want things to go back to normal. I am glad that the world has been shaken up so that perhaps we have a better chance of understanding what responsibility we all have in this world and how we contribute to racism. This isn’t about shaming or making something right and wrong nor is it about black lives in America or Aboriginal lives in Australia. For me it is about let’s make a stance all the time. Let’s unite at any opportunity we have. Let us be educated about what is going on right under our very noses, in our classrooms, in our workplaces and in our everyday conversations so that justice can be served. Today is a great day to visualize, imagine, create and produce.

#2020#connect2createchange#

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia xxo

5. My neighbourhood is a joy to live in. As neighbours, we are all friendly, concerned for each other’s welfare.

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I had to laugh when I read the affirmation for today! If you had of heard me only a few weeks ago you would I heard that I was being anything but friendly to my neighbour. For the last two years I have lived in a complex when pretty much from Day 1 there was a complaint. Apparently body corporate bi laws is something I am not good at adhering to. No hanging clothes at the front of the home, no bikes to be displayed and definitely no BBQ’s! To say that this has consumed huge amounts of energy is an understatement. To say that I have learnt so much about myself and others through this process has been huge.

What I have learnt most is about what my soul is am willing and not willing to accept. The process has been fascinating to say the least. The core of the issues may have been about bikes and bbq’s but the true essence of the lesson is community and connection or lack thereof. For me it was about an unwillingness to communicate, lack of integrity, misuse of power and the inability to have a conversation.

What I am also finding through this process is that the actions of others allow me to learn more about myself. I have discovered that what I feel is fair and just is not the same as the next person. It is my job to let others see a different side? Do I really want my home to be in a place where for most of the time I don’t feel supported or that my neighbours don’t have my back? If this is how we do one thing then is not how we do everything? Or is it as simple as where I am no longer works for me. I know now more than ever it is time to move. I no longer have an interest in trying to wake people up to what I perceive as an injustice. If someone is happy to live in a world where injustice occurs and allows more of the same what is it that I am actually fighting for? For it is the disservice that I am doing to myself that is doing way more harm than good.

So when I summarise the affirmation for today for me it is about what I am choosing to surround myself with. To know that every human being is on their own journey and I do not have the right to be in judgment of where they are at. What I can do is put my energy into what I do desire and want not only for myself but for humanity. To live in a neighbourhood that is filled with joy with ALL of my neighbours being friendly and concerned for each other’s welfare. Blessed be and so it is. Thank you.

#2020#connect2createchange#

With a splash of mermaid magic and let unicorns lead your way.

HUGE LOVE

Sonia xxo