Learning to be my own best friend would have to be one of the most awesome lessons that I have been able to learn. When I looked at the affirmation I pondered for a little and wondered what it actually meant for me. What I am really aware of right now is that I am back in Cambodia for the fourth time in exactly 2 years. This time two years ago I certainly wasn’t my own very best friend and so much has happened since that very first trip. So the affirmation for today feels really symbolic for me is no so many ways. Not only is it about friendship with others but most importantly about the friendship I have with myself.
One of the most significant lessons is what my idea of friendship actually means and as time, lessons and years unveil, what friendship once was may be no longer. I know for me the last two years there has also been significant shift in friendships. It is not about whether or not it is good or bad it just is. The most important aspect that I have been able to acknowledge are the parts of me that are also growing and learning each time a shift happens. Whatever the situation that may present itself it is about reflecting that what is going on is merely a reflection as to where you are at or have been in the past. There is no reason to judge but to take personal responsibility and grow from the amazing lessons that presented. Each time it is about learning to be my own best friend.
So as I write after a day of building a playground in a remote village in Cambodia, I realise just how much I value my own friendship. I realise and know even more so just how much gratitude and compassion I have for myself and how bloody blessed I am. It makes me understand how ridiculous it is each time I look at myself at the mirror and scold myself for being too whatever. For God’s sake I have food to fill my belly. When I get annoyed that my pants or tops that aren’t right, I can appreciate the abundance that I do have. The freedom in buying clothes is a choice that I have taken for granted so many times. It is not about judging or berating my actions, thoughts and feelings but acknowledging that I can be my own worst enemy or very best friend. Not sure about you but I would rather be my own very best friend. We can be so critical of our beautiful selves and find it way too easy to criticize and condemn our actions. When was the last time you looked at yourself in the mirror and said “I am awesome” Give it a go!! Cambodia feels like a best friend to me right now because it teaches me so much about myself and my life and I am so blessed to be in the Country of Wonder, a country that has taught me to know that I AM AWESOME! I am my own very best friend. Older friends may come and go, but I am always here for me. I support myself in feeling good.
With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.
With HUGE love
Sonia
xoxoxo
