60. My current thought, the one I am thinking now, is totally under my control.

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A few weeks ago a friend gave me a copy of The Secret by Rhonda Byrne on an audio book. I was chuffed because it meant that I had something to listen to in the car. I have been commuting to Geelong to go to work a few days a week. Funnily enough a few days prior to that I had been thinking that it would be great to have something constructive to listen to and then “bingo” there it was. As some of you may or may not know The Secret is a book about manifesting but particularly our thoughts and what we put out to the universe. So when I saw the affirmation for today I realised pretty quickly that there was a message in that for me.

Since the beginning of the year I have been dealing with grief. It doesn’t have to be or good it just is. What I have learnt about grief is that it doesn’t have to be something that we avoid and bury. Rather it is something that allows us to grow to a level that we did not know existed and to find the gifts within us and our everyday lives.

What was the realisation for me was the “phone calls” and the news that was received with each death and realising how much it had affected me. With two deaths in such a short amount of time the grief differs for each one and the magnitude and multitude of emotions that go with it range so diversely. What has affected me is that if I receive more than a missed call from one of my family members I go into anxiety believing that something “had happened”. It sounds ridiculous and dramatic but I have recognised that was what was going on for me especially after listening to The Secret. So in actual fact what I am doing is simply sending nervous and anxious energy into the universe and it is returning to me tenfold. What then exacerbates is everything else! So it them becomes a roller coaster of emotions when another aspect in my life may not be what it seems and I can spiral.

This really hit home for me last weekend so I stopped and mediated. Of course sitting on top of my CD player was a meditation about removing negative energy and I immediately felt in sync with the universe. What I do know is that I don’t have to dismiss what has been playing out in my mind but the fact that I have recognised it is a bonus. So being mindful and taking inspired action is what I did. I have no idea what the forecast is for me right now and practising patience and trusting is so important. I can choose to live in anxiety and allow life to scare me or I can honour what I am feeling, be gentle on myself, have an attitude of gratitude and work on myself day by day. For we only ever have this one moment so why not make each moment matter and every day a new beginning. My current thought, the one I am thinking now, is totally under my control. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

With love

Sonia

xxxoo

I constantly find new ways of looking at my world. I see beauty everywhere.

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The last few days have been somewhat revealing and I love the way that the lessons unveil. I had a healing a few days ago and what came up for me was to acknowledge the way in which I felt about various things in life. It was predominantly the “stuff” that was making me feel anxious or unsettled for whatever reason. What I was doing as “stuff” was coming up for me was to dismiss and disregard the “feeling”. I would feel it come up and then tell myself “to stop being ridiculous” or to just “snap out of it” and shove it back down again. By doing this I wasn’t acknowledging what was going on for me nor was I taking the power away from the negativity. Instead I was fuelling it. What was important for me to understand and recognise was what was actually going on.

This morning I was reading a book and a paragraph stood out for me like a big fat lightbulb aha moment. The funny or not so funny thing about it is that for whatever reason I decided to bring this book away with me. It is a book that was given to me by a dear friend about a month ago and I had only managed to read a couple of pages. So as I sat this morning and kept reading from where I had left off I knew exactly why I was reading it at this exact time. It is known that your soul truly knows what it is that you require at any point in your life so I was grateful that I had chosen to bring this particular book away with me. It was the perfect message at the most opportune time. It read “You have to learn to love the negative; you have to welcome it, because when you can see it you can take the power of out if it. You can let it go.”[i]

So in less than a week I had received the same message twice from two separate sources. I know it is an important lesson for me to learn and I have caught myself in my thought patterns. So instead of dismissing what I am feeling I am learning to console myself and speak to my inner self as I would anyone who was feeling this way, gentle and loving. I have found that it pacifies the feeling and no longer has the same fear\anxiousness attached to it. What I also tell myself is the outcome of whatever it is I am feeling and how I desire it to look\feel.  I must admit I do giggle at myself when I am having internal conversations but at least I am not shoving my emotions down for them only to turn up later on. So as I reflect on the affirmation for today I can find such beauty in the negativity of my emotions as they are teaching me to love myself on another level that I have not yet known and for this I am grateful. I constantly find new ways of looking at my world. I see beauty everywhere. Blessed be and it is so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

With huge LOVE

Sonia

xoxox

 

[i] The Magicians Way by William Whitecloud

I am comfortable with my power at work. Because my power comes from my heart, it is always loving, gentle and just.

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Wowsers this topic has come up so much from me in the last week that when I saw it as the affirmation for today I wanted to avoid it because quite frankly, I didn’t want to. But in true universe style I know that the lessons always come to me when I need to learn them for whatever reason. I know that there are no mistakes and when I don’t hear and learn from it is that I meant to the lesson will just keep presenting itself. Nearly every day in the last week my power and what I do has come up. For me it is about recognising my own talents and to trust that I am a powerful woman without cringing when I say it. To know and truly understand that true power does come from your heart.

For me today this affirmation feels very poignant for so many reasons. As I am writing the song that is on the radio is from Wilson Phillips – “Hold On”. The lyrics read;

“Why do you lock yourself up in these chains?

No one can change your life except for you

Don’t let anyone step all over you

Just open your heart and your mind

Is it really fair to feel this way inside?”

 

Oh the irony on how we receive messages some times. I can’t tell you how many times I have heard that song over the years and never has it meant more to me than what it does right now.  I truly love the way the universe works and believe me it is very persistent and messages can be delivered to you in so many ways. Considering the amount of conversations that I have had about this very topic this week I know that it is an absolute confirmation about stepping into what I already know. It is about standing in my own power that is straight from the heart and is always loving, gentle and just. Right now I feel like getting that tattoo tattooed on my forehead so I can never ever forgot what it means to me. No more playing small, no more being so bloody afraid of my own power to step up and say yes to success.

It truly amazes me as humans just how much we like to complicate our own journey and path. The universe generally sets out a clear path for us to follow. Being the intricate and analytical beings that we sometimes tend to create these ginormous blocks. We then have to navigate our way around all the challenges we have just created for ourselves. Such a disservice and what a headF*&K! I guess as cliché as it sounds it is all a part of the journey but such a long and hard road we make it for ourselves. I get that we learn what we have to at the perfect time but if you are reading this right now and contemplating about stepping up, take it from me this is a sign to know that you are perfect just the way you are. This has been an awesome lesson for me and I am grateful for all it has taught me along the way, but really it did take a while for the penny to drop. For the angels that presented this week to teach me the lesson, thank you from my heart to yours.  I am comfortable with my power at work. Because my power comes from my heart, it is always loving, gentle and just. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

With HUGE love

Sonia

xxoo

Just like the bright summer sun, I am a radiant being. Others feel safe and warm in my presence.

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Life presents us with many challenges; they can be good, bad or indifferent. It is the way that we deal with what life presents us with that makes the difference and how we choose to spend our lives. When I thought about what I was going to write about t today I reflected on what it meant for me. Right now for me it feels relatively easy to feel like a bright summer sun. I have just returned from a few weeks in Cambodia. I am home in Australia and have been filled up with so much love from my family and friends. I can connect to the affirmation and it would be easy peezzy to write about this from my perspective. Instead what I thought about was what it would be like right now for people who are not feeling like a ray of sunshine.

What has come up for me a lot lately is my own “story” of mental illness and how my own journey can help others. It feels like real life purpose stuff especially since my own cousin took her own life through suicide earlier this year. This is something that lives with me each and every day and turning this around is something that I am still working on for myself. What I do know is that while I was in Cambodia healing took place and one of the things that I was able to recognise is that a part of my purpose is to shed light and detach stigma from mental illness.

When you are in the depths of depression and the world that you are in is surrounded by darkness, there really is no point in telling somebody to affirm “I am a bright summer sun” You are likely to get a punch in the face or something of sorts. There is nothing more patronising than somebody telling you to think happy thoughts when you are in the depths of your darkness.

My personal journey about depression and psych admissions is recognising what got me to that place.  It is about how it has served me and ultimately also saving me. It is about recognising that I am not always a ray of FU*(N sunshine and sometimes I am like a thunderous lightning bolt. It is about appreciating that without darkness lightness cannot exist. It is in the depths of our darkness that true creativity and passion stirs. For if it is with that much determination that we are able to go inwards it is with the same strength and courage that we are able to turn this energy of darkness outwards and into the light.

So instead of this post being about others feeling safe and warm in my presence it is about acknowledging being who it is that you need to be at any given moment. To be proud and honour what it is that you are feeling. That it is Ok to feel whatever you want to feel and for those around you to be in that space of love and warmth. Ultimately it is about feeling safe to express, be vulnerable and just show up as you. Just like the bright summer sun, I am a radiant being. Others feel safe and warm in my presence. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

 

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day

With HUG love

Sonia

xoo

Challenges are opportunities for me to grow. The more I learn, the more equipped I am to handle whatever situations come up.

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Almost two years ago to the very date I sat in the same place that I am sitting right now. I am in Kuala Lumpur International Airport waiting for a connecting flight to Siem Reap Cambodia. A place that I travelled to as a participant of a . I remember at the time I almost didn’t go for a myriad of reasons. I had just separated after a 7 year relationship. I was recovering from a sinus nose operation, I was living with my folks and I had just enough money to get a plane ticket and pay for the trip that would change my life in so many ways. Ways that at the time I could not have fathomed to even begin to comprehend. So as I write my affirmation I feel amazingly grateful right now for ALL the challenges in my life as they have led me exactly to where I am right now. I really LOVE my life!

What the last two years have especially taught me is how to live loving. The lessons have been profound and the most valuable would have to be the never ending lesson of loving myself. Not only to learn to love myself but especially how to love with compassion for others. I am not necessarily talking about friends and family, for most of the time they are easy peezy to love. Rather what I am embracing is that I learn to love and accept each part of me and with that I have more love and compassion for the rest of humanity. Sounds pretty simple I reckon but I can tell you right now each hurdle or challenge that presents generally has a theme of a lack of love, insecurity or ego having a play. For when I love and truly love ALL aspects of who I am then the rest just follows.

People often ask me why I keep going back to Cambodia. There are no real words to describe other than the feeling of “home” that it represents for me. The simplicity and gratitude of what life has to offer overwhelms me with such generosity and magic. More importantly it is about a connection to know that we are all the same and that every living person has the right to justice, equality and peace. My heart over pours with emotion as I feel into the Cambodian people, for the injustice of country that is filled with so many things but above all gratitude and compassion.

What I do know that with all the challenges that last two years have presented me they have certainly created a pretty awesome version of who I am right now. I could never have foreseen what the potential of “the break up” could have been, but two years on and life is more exciting than what I have ever known. Far out what amazing lessons I have learnt! It was never an ending it was simply a wondrous new beginning. When you believe and shine your light magic happens. Challenges are opportunities for me to grow. The more I learn, the more equipped I am to handle whatever situations come up. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

 

HUGE love

Sonia

xxx

43. I now release all expectations, knowing that Life will always take care of me.

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Thank you for the affirmation for today universe! As I sit here on a precious autumn morning at my favourite local café I feel immense gratitude for the reminders about why life is so precious. I recognise to not get caught up in drama, especially after having received a text at 7:15am. I release all expectations especially by those by who I may have felt disappointment, resentment or bitterness. I am reminded to be compassionate and kind as much as I want to have a “dig” and respond in a way that will only create a story and drama. It doesn’t mean that I do not have to feel what is going on but it is about accepting responsibility and understanding that we are all the same and that we all have played a part to get to where we are right now. So for now I send compassion and love to the situation. I trust that when the timing is aligned the lessons will be revealed and the journey will continue whichever the way it is intended for the greater good of all involved.

What today further affirms for is to truly believe and understand that life will always take care of me. Right now I am in the midst of jobs and the next leap of faith that I am about to embark on right now is unknown. I am reminded to let go of ALL expectations that are associated with this and to trust and fully feel that the universe has totes got my back. That doesn’t mean that I just sit back and wait for it to happen. There are action steps that I am required to pursue and I need to be really clear about what it is that I desire. To trust and know that when we are living our truth and are our authentic selves then the universe will always weave its magic and lead us to where we are meant to be.

The last few weeks especially, my energy has been scattered and I have not been in the moment. I have been contemplating with some worry about where to from here. The few “redirections” that I have received have certainly tested my trust and faith in knowing that I am always taken care of and that where I am is exactly where I am meant to be. I understand that if a door hasn’t opened it is simply because it wasn’t the right one for me. My higher self understands this totally but there are times when my beloved ego comes in to play and convinces me otherwise. Ego pushes us to peel away more layers and allows us to become more vulnerable. With our vulnerability also comes our strength and courage to be the magnificent beings that we were born to be. I now release all expectations, knowing that Life will always take care of me. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day,

 

With love

Soniaxoxoox

41. I willingly release the need for struggle and suffering. I deserve to have a fulfilling life and I accept it now.

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I am so grateful for the affirmation today and allowing me to hear exactly what I needed at the perfect time. I have had way too many thoughts and worries going on in my head lately and quite frankly I don’t like the amount of space that I am consuming on energy that has no value and stifles my creativity. I attended a funeral today. I actually took myself out of my heart space and focused on everything but the pain on my friend.  It may sound selfish and it some aspects it may be but for me right now I know what my limitations and delving into her pain will not serve me. It doesn’t mean that I am not sending her love nor that I am not sad or sorry for her but instead I am practising compassion with detachment and applying what I know how elsewhere.

I have felt like I have been struggling of late, life has felt sad but there have been many moments of blessings and gratitude and for these I am grateful. I appreciate the contrast and make sure that I am looking after myself. So today after the funeral today my energy was heavy and drained. Tonight I went to my aunt’s home for dinner and spent time with my crazy cousins and filled myself back up with love. It is all about the contrast and allowing receiving when I am vulnerable. My aunt’s home is so giving and I am very blessed

So when I reflect on the message for today it is a strong reminder to give up my worries and concerns about the future and to not feel anxious about what may or may not be. What I do know is that my focus on the next chapter is one that is filled with excitement and new opportunities rather than worrying about where to next. I have complete faith and trust that the universe will provide. Sure I have to put myself out there but the risk far outweighs being stagnant or not growing from my experiences. In the end they are all just “stories” and it depends on how we perceive them that is the difference. I can choose to look at this time of my life as uncertainty and worry or I could give up the struggle and say “hey universe I am so ready to receive with open arms for the next exciting miraculous adventure that you have ready for me”

The most prominent in the message for today are the words “I deserve”. This was a lesson that took me a while to know and understand but one of the greatest gifts I feel you can ever give yourself. I totes know now that I deserve to have a fulfilling life and I am so grateful to my writing and the words of Louise Hay that have reminded me of this lesson. We are always learning and imperfectly perfect. I willingly release the need for struggle and suffering. I deserve to have a fulfilling life and I accept it now. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow you day.

With love

Sonia

xoxox

40. I think big and then I allow myself to accept even more.

10703783_10152835115117240_7979328416965632819_nI had to sit with the affirmation for a little today before I was actually able to articulate what it meant for me. Right now I am in a bit of a crossroads with where life is taking me. There is a bunch of excitement that is going on, but there is also a sense of judgement that goes on with ego. I have had a few rejections in the last week. Actually I have begun to see them as redirections, and the vibration of the word feels far less harsh. The redirections are leading me to places that I haven’t been before or considered. It is giving me the opportunity to be still and work out what is my next chapter of the journey. Very cliché I know but it is exactly what it is. I could sit here and talk about my “rejections” and feel sorry about myself but that would be a pretty boring story or I can redirect me energy and focus on where to from here. I trust that the universe has bigger and brighter doors to open

There is a poem that I deeply love. It was read by Nelson Mandela and written by Marianne Williamson. The first few lines read “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that frightens us” I was reminded of this poem today for whatever reason. It is one that I have read many times before but tonight it feels more pertinent. Ego likes to keep us small because we are afraid. We are afraid to love too much or too little. We allow our past to dictate where we are going because of where we have been. In the end they are only stories that only have power if we fuel them with our ego. I can choose to feel rejection and go into the drama of not being good enough or deserving but F*&K that shit! That story is boring and I have been living it for far too long! I am the only one that creates the life that I desire and deserve.

Broken hearts of abandonment and rejection could fill page after page. Yes they may have merit to where I have been and who I am today but I no longer allow it to be part of the big picture that I am creating right now. I know that the universe tests us time and time again until we get the lesson. So for me right now I am going to dream big and accept prosperity and opportunities because I know that this is all part of the big picture and the life that I am living. So thank you for the redirections that you so kindly offered, I now know that I am being pushed to serve more, shine my light and to be the best version of me. I think big and I allow myself to accept even more. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

With love

Sonia

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39. I accept opportunities when they come my way. I feel confident about my future.

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I love the timing of the affirmation presented to me today. I am in the middle of transition with my job at the moment with a contract about to finish. I am putting my feelers up to see what it out there and have dabbled in a few applications. Today I received my first official, “thanks but no thanks” email. For the first time ever I was really cool with it. Rather than go into the mode of “Oh no I just got a rejection email” my first thought was oh well clearly that wasn’t meant to be for me right now and the universe has a different door that I am meant to walk through.

So as one door closes I am confident that brand new ones will open and I am really excited. My dad is an extremely funny and no nonsense kind of man. He is a straight shooter and has an opinion about everything. His way is ALWAYS the right way. So the other day when I mentioned to him that I was looking for work as a contract was ending he took an opportunity to tell me that I am always changing jobs, that I never stay in one place and after that I just heard blah blah. Rather than retaliate I had a laugh and said “dad you are absolutely right!” I love change and it means that life is never boring. He still carried on and continued with his story (as he does) and it was a great reminder that life is about perception. I especially love the quote by Dr Wayne Dyer “When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change” My dad is one of my greatest teachers. He teaches me to be relentless in what I want to achieve and reminds me about patience, acceptance and compassion. There was a time when a conversation such at the one mentioned would have ended in an argument but I acknowledge that there is truth in what he is saying. The difference is I am not seeking his approval, not his nor of anybody else. I love myself enough to know that the only approval that is important is mine.

So for now as I transition to a new phase in my life I have complete trust and faith that doors will open. As I have already witnessed some doors may not open and that it totally cool as well. I approve and love myself for who I am and know that I am worthy of receiving the best possible opportunities that will fulfil my life purpose and passion. So for now it is about learning to surrender, to trust and know that everything will be exactly the way it is meant to. I feel that the path ahead is cleared of all obstacles for an exciting future that is filled with magic and miracles. I accept opportunities that come my way.  I feel confident about my future. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Lots of love

Sonia

xxo

33. I have the power to create all that I wish with my mind and my thoughts. I am truly someone special.

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Changing perception is something that I have been aware of and practising for quite some time now. It is also something that I write about on a regular basis. Still there are times where I struggle to find the perfect thoughts and I can fall into a slump. What is important is that I recognise this and know that what goes on inside my mind is what happens in my outer world. So if I have shitty and unpleasant thoughts then life attracts the same.

The last few months have been really challenging and somewhat tough. My aunt passed away and soon after my cousin committed suicide. Many years ago I myself lived with depression and know the feeling of wanting life to end all too well. Her death has left us with a heavy heart and immense sadness. About a week ago I had a healing and some of the fog dispersed and the sun is seeping through.  I can’t change what happened, nor can I go back in my mind about what could have or should have been. Rather what I do know now is that I have the power to channel the adversity of her death into something that is positive and a tribute to her legacy.

We are all special and unique. There is no one better than another and we all have the potential to light our own unique flame. The injustice that saddens me is the masses of people that live in places of the world where impoverishment is debilitating. So I am filled with gratitude with all that I have and this certainly gives me the power to create all I wish. In the meantime I can contribute to peace and justice in ways that I know how.

So when life presents with what we may perceives as challenges, heartbreak and grief they can also be filtered into creative potential and being of service to others through what we have learnt. The last few months has seen my life with more than a few endings. I can choose to see them as negative or I can experience them as growth and resilience. That doesn’t mean that I do not feel or that grief and sadness is not warranted, but what I do know is that it can be directed into other outlets rather than bitterness, resentment and anger. Today as I sit to write my blog my body is weary and a cold is approaching. For me it is about taking time to heal, nurture and refocus my life into all that I wish to create. I truly believe that the universe forces you to stop at times and just be. To just feel life for ALL that it is no matter what comes up. Yes there has been heartbreak and endings but it has also shown me love on a deeper level that I did not know before these experiences. I have the power to create all that I wish with my mind and my thoughts. I am truly special. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

 

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo