186. Move through Life Changes

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My life changes take me in positive new directions. The angels are with me every step of the way, and I am open to receiving their help, guidance, and protection. I am excited about fresh possibilities on my path.

I love change and actually really dislike when my life is the same. If my life is the same it means that there is no growth, no leaps of faith and that I am staying comfortable in my zone. For me when there is no change or shifts I actually feel stifled, my energy is stuck and I feel blah. Not a nice place to be and when I am in this space I know that I am ready and willing to accept change in every way possible.

What I interpret to be normal is that life presents us with hurdles and obstacles that we can perceive as blocks or stepping stones to where we need to be. When I am presented with a situation that ultimately will change my life and the way I live it is not always pleasant, sometimes it is through an action of another that has hurt or caused me pain. What I am open to do in these instances is to go inwards and firstly ask myself where it is my life that I have also played this role. It is not always or easy or pleasant to look within. What I definitely do know is that it is far more empowering to feel this way than to choose to be a victim or martyr to the situation. That is not to disregard that what another person has done is OK in fact to accept the behaviour is abuse to self. Rather what lends itself to change and growth is to learn from what has been presented and to take responsibility for the situation that ultimately has been created by you.

What you have allowed to accept in your life is a part of you where that behaviour may also reside. It is sometimes difficult to look within and to accept the shadow but I know that accepting my shadow is one of the bloody most powerful aspects of growth that I have been able to learn from. There is change that comes from acceptance of self and yes that sometimes can be scary but staying the same is far scarier. F*&k I don’t want to die being the same person I am right now! I want my eulogy to be filled with so much adventure, magic and change for not only myself but for the world.

So for me right now my changes are about acceptance of taking a leap of faith. To create a life where I put myself out there far more than what I ever did, to be the I want to see in the world by being of service to humanity , by not staying small and my saying yes to life!  The changes in my life are experiences of magic and miracles filled with abundance, gratitude and grace. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

185. Have Patience with yourself

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I have patience with myself and my progress. I acknowledge and honour how far I’ve come and how much I’ve learned. I give any fears or worries to God and the angels, relaxing in the sure faith that everything is going according to Divine Plan.

The affirmation that I randomly picked today was exactly what I was meant to hear. I must admit I had been beating myself up of late and feeling that I have not done all the things that I had set myself out to do. So when I flicked to the affirmation to today I sat down and breathed a sigh of relief. Instead I felt rather than thought and was really honoured and proud about  all that I have been able to achieve rather than berate myself. It is so bloody easy to be hard on ourselves and yet for some ridiculous reason we don’t easily recognise our successes. Today I stand proud of all of who I am and all that I have achieved so far.

When we lie in bed thinking thoughts that consume our mind we are not thinking of all the beautiful wonderful things that are happening, instead we are riddled with worry about all the things that occurrences that can potentially happen. As I type this out I realise how ridiculously worthless and pointless this is to our self-esteem and most importantly our worth. Why is it that at times we struggle to see our own worth and beauty? There could be a gazillion indoctrinated beliefs about this but ultimately the only person that can change the answer to that is you. For me right now this is the biggest lesson that I am learning. To know and understand that I am worthy of all the great things that are in my life right now and of everything that will be.

This morning I lay in bed for ages before I got myself up. A few times I heard myself saying “come on Sonia it is a beautiful day get up and get out and get stuff done” my body was telling me otherwise so I continued to lie there. Then another voice popped in my head “you are wasting a beautiful morning”, this time I told ego to F*(K off my body was tired and I was listening because I am worthy and deserving of rest. Anyway whose perception is it anyway that resting your body in bed is time wasting?  It was certainly something that I have heard and learnt to be real because this was my perception. When it no longer becomes what I believe I am not wasting time in bed rather I love my body enough to rest and recuperate for all the things that I would like to do.

So in reflection on the affirmation for today it is about acknowledging how far we have come from yesterday. It is not about living in the past but rather to be proud of ALL that has been achieved good bad or indifferent. To celebrate the breakups and heartbreaks as milestones and all the mistakes along the way for it is these situations that truly shape us. I am awesome and perfect just the way I am and everything is working in divine working order right now. Blessed be, so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

 

174. Trust Yourself

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I trust my gut feelings and listen to my inner wisdom. I take steps back on the messages that I receive. I have faith in myself, knowing that I am continuously guided by the love of God.  

The last six months have taught me to trust myself more than what I have even known in my life and it is such a beautiful thing. There are still times when ego comes in the way and rears its ugly head and likes to f*&K with my mind but only for as long as I allow it. Once I am able to recognise if it is my head or my heart that is speaking to me that I can trust what is going on for me. Moving from my head to my heart has been one of the most liberating tools that I have ever been able to learn in my life. It is so magical and fulfilling. That is not to say that I never get in my head space but you know what it drains the crap out of me now! I have recognised this more so in the last few days more than I ever have and it gave me a headache.

What this also tells me is the situations and people are not worth the drama or the stories that are attached to them. That is not to say that I don’t take responsibility in any part because I do and acknowledge what this means for me. Hindsight is wonderful but has no purpose in life in talking and regurgitating about the “what ifs” or “should haves”. What I recognise is that my gut feelings are there for a reason. It is our compass and how we navigate our way. So having ignored these gut feelings in the past has led me to the situations that I am in today. That is OK because everything is presented at the perfect time.

As life unfolds you learn more which one may say is inevitable. So as I am writing about trusting myself I know that there is such a freedom to simplicity. I feel that in life we analyse, mince it, turn it around until it gives us a headache and drains the crap out of us. The last few days have unveiled another onion layer which plucked itself out of nowhere. None the less the layers unveiling are awesome no matter how crap they may feel at the time. Something eithers feels good or bad, it is easy or hard. The simplicity of such actions allows us the freedom and grace to live the lives that we choose. Why we would do something if it makes us feel bad? Yet time and time again there are so many instances when we put ourselves in situations that do so. So for me knowing that I am in my heart space is about listening and trusting to what I know is truth. I listen and trust my inner wisdom and allow guidance to be heard clearly. Blessed be and so it is. Namaste.

 

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo