As the middle of year approaches, I wonder, How can I love more? How can I give myself more love? In response, Life teaches me how to feel even better.

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Wowsers we are in the month of June already and the first day of winter. When I looked at the quote of the month I decided to take some time to reflect on exactly what it meant for me. The subject of being living love has been a theme for me especially in the last couple of days. I attended a workshop a few nights ago and I walked away with a reminder that we are ALL energy of love and to practise living love every single day. Last night I attended a dance workshop where I was so filled with love and compassion for myself and the whole universe that I was on an almighty high of love, love glorious love.

I am intrigued about the notion that every action that we take comes from love. After all my blog is about living with a compassionate heart so this is right up my alley. What has also come up for me of late as I transition into a new phase in my life is why I am here? What is my purpose? So in true serendipitous style, the universe has presented me with an affirmation that is divinely appointed to where I am at right now. So when I feel into my next chapter of my life I know that whatever it is that I am doing has to be filled with more love. Funnily enough I was speaking to my boss earlier and had commented that I have always worked in a job that I have loved. For me this is a HUGE value in my life and one that I cannot compromise for my soul for my time here on earth.

So how do I love more? There is a lady that comes into my workplace. She is far from being pleasant and we are generally confronted with a complaint of some sort. A few weeks ago I felt that she must be really sad. So I decided to be super friendly to her and be really mindful of not getting caught up in her story of sadness and bitterness. If we face disgruntle with disgruntle it is a recipe for anger and distaste.

As far as I am concerned this is certainly a work in progress and for me I know it is something that I am particularly mindful of. Can you imagine what kind of world we would live in if every action that took place was simply out of love, respect and compassion for each other? Especially for those that may make it difficult for us to show love towards. Call me a dreamer but I am really happy to imagine that this is the world that we will live in. In terms of loving myself more I am really mindful of the language I use on myself, the way I look at myself and even the mornings where I don’t feel so great I look at myself in the mirror and say thank you, I love for being alive, even if this is all I can muster for the day.

So now when I reflect on the affirmation for the middle of the year and how I choose to live life I know that I am love living and that every action is from love. Most importantly I am falling in love with me!  I am surrounded and thrive in an atmosphere of love. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

With HUGE love.

Sonia

xx

43. I now release all expectations, knowing that Life will always take care of me.

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Thank you for the affirmation for today universe! As I sit here on a precious autumn morning at my favourite local café I feel immense gratitude for the reminders about why life is so precious. I recognise to not get caught up in drama, especially after having received a text at 7:15am. I release all expectations especially by those by who I may have felt disappointment, resentment or bitterness. I am reminded to be compassionate and kind as much as I want to have a “dig” and respond in a way that will only create a story and drama. It doesn’t mean that I do not have to feel what is going on but it is about accepting responsibility and understanding that we are all the same and that we all have played a part to get to where we are right now. So for now I send compassion and love to the situation. I trust that when the timing is aligned the lessons will be revealed and the journey will continue whichever the way it is intended for the greater good of all involved.

What today further affirms for is to truly believe and understand that life will always take care of me. Right now I am in the midst of jobs and the next leap of faith that I am about to embark on right now is unknown. I am reminded to let go of ALL expectations that are associated with this and to trust and fully feel that the universe has totes got my back. That doesn’t mean that I just sit back and wait for it to happen. There are action steps that I am required to pursue and I need to be really clear about what it is that I desire. To trust and know that when we are living our truth and are our authentic selves then the universe will always weave its magic and lead us to where we are meant to be.

The last few weeks especially, my energy has been scattered and I have not been in the moment. I have been contemplating with some worry about where to from here. The few “redirections” that I have received have certainly tested my trust and faith in knowing that I am always taken care of and that where I am is exactly where I am meant to be. I understand that if a door hasn’t opened it is simply because it wasn’t the right one for me. My higher self understands this totally but there are times when my beloved ego comes in to play and convinces me otherwise. Ego pushes us to peel away more layers and allows us to become more vulnerable. With our vulnerability also comes our strength and courage to be the magnificent beings that we were born to be. I now release all expectations, knowing that Life will always take care of me. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day,

 

With love

Soniaxoxoox

41. I willingly release the need for struggle and suffering. I deserve to have a fulfilling life and I accept it now.

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I am so grateful for the affirmation today and allowing me to hear exactly what I needed at the perfect time. I have had way too many thoughts and worries going on in my head lately and quite frankly I don’t like the amount of space that I am consuming on energy that has no value and stifles my creativity. I attended a funeral today. I actually took myself out of my heart space and focused on everything but the pain on my friend.  It may sound selfish and it some aspects it may be but for me right now I know what my limitations and delving into her pain will not serve me. It doesn’t mean that I am not sending her love nor that I am not sad or sorry for her but instead I am practising compassion with detachment and applying what I know how elsewhere.

I have felt like I have been struggling of late, life has felt sad but there have been many moments of blessings and gratitude and for these I am grateful. I appreciate the contrast and make sure that I am looking after myself. So today after the funeral today my energy was heavy and drained. Tonight I went to my aunt’s home for dinner and spent time with my crazy cousins and filled myself back up with love. It is all about the contrast and allowing receiving when I am vulnerable. My aunt’s home is so giving and I am very blessed

So when I reflect on the message for today it is a strong reminder to give up my worries and concerns about the future and to not feel anxious about what may or may not be. What I do know is that my focus on the next chapter is one that is filled with excitement and new opportunities rather than worrying about where to next. I have complete faith and trust that the universe will provide. Sure I have to put myself out there but the risk far outweighs being stagnant or not growing from my experiences. In the end they are all just “stories” and it depends on how we perceive them that is the difference. I can choose to look at this time of my life as uncertainty and worry or I could give up the struggle and say “hey universe I am so ready to receive with open arms for the next exciting miraculous adventure that you have ready for me”

The most prominent in the message for today are the words “I deserve”. This was a lesson that took me a while to know and understand but one of the greatest gifts I feel you can ever give yourself. I totes know now that I deserve to have a fulfilling life and I am so grateful to my writing and the words of Louise Hay that have reminded me of this lesson. We are always learning and imperfectly perfect. I willingly release the need for struggle and suffering. I deserve to have a fulfilling life and I accept it now. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow you day.

With love

Sonia

xoxox

41. My garden of affirmations is blossoming.

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I had to laugh at the affirmation for today as it probably wasn’t a blossoming kind of affirmation day; in fact they were more like I feel like punching somebody in the face kind of day. Just for the record I didn’t punch anybody but there were a lot of eloquent words that may have been heard if you were in my vicinity. What I do know is that I woke up this morning and I felt like crap. My head was stuffy, my chest was heavy and my energy levels were low. I was grumpy and the rest of the day sort of seemed to steer itself in that direction. I was aware of my mood and quite possibly at some point should have looked at a garden of affirmations. Instead I took some time out called a friend and as far as I am concerned a problem shared is a problem halved.

So at the end of the day as I sit here as one of the final things that I do, I reflect on the day and really do realise that in the great scheme of things, today was like a teensy weensy drop in the great big ocean. I am grateful for these experiences because they truly do show me that this is not what I want my life to look like.  I can sit here and rant about my day but quite frankly I have done that already and now my own story bores me. It is a reminder for me to love every single day with compassion, to live my life with purpose and passion. To acknowledge that there are times when we are feeling vulnerable, emotional and would really just love a hug.

Yesterday marked the New Moon and I wrote myself some goals and wishes. Affirmations and goals is something that you will find around my home and work space and for me they are a reminder to be aware of my thoughts. I am sure that some of the conversations that were going on in my head today were not blossoming, nor did they add to my garden of affirmations. Well they affirming just not of the positive kind. So instead of saying that today was a crappy day, I consider it to be a day of lessons and learning more about compassion. What I am learning is that people primarily act in a way that is untoward because of their own pain and ego. That is not to say that it is cool but rather I can feel compassion with detachment, be responsible for my contribution and focus on what is real. What is real is love in action and living a life of bliss and more. To reflect on my goals and wishes that I wrote yesterday and exerting my energy in what is truly important. My garden of affirmations is blossoming. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

With love

Sonia

xoo

 

40. I think big and then I allow myself to accept even more.

10703783_10152835115117240_7979328416965632819_nI had to sit with the affirmation for a little today before I was actually able to articulate what it meant for me. Right now I am in a bit of a crossroads with where life is taking me. There is a bunch of excitement that is going on, but there is also a sense of judgement that goes on with ego. I have had a few rejections in the last week. Actually I have begun to see them as redirections, and the vibration of the word feels far less harsh. The redirections are leading me to places that I haven’t been before or considered. It is giving me the opportunity to be still and work out what is my next chapter of the journey. Very cliché I know but it is exactly what it is. I could sit here and talk about my “rejections” and feel sorry about myself but that would be a pretty boring story or I can redirect me energy and focus on where to from here. I trust that the universe has bigger and brighter doors to open

There is a poem that I deeply love. It was read by Nelson Mandela and written by Marianne Williamson. The first few lines read “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that frightens us” I was reminded of this poem today for whatever reason. It is one that I have read many times before but tonight it feels more pertinent. Ego likes to keep us small because we are afraid. We are afraid to love too much or too little. We allow our past to dictate where we are going because of where we have been. In the end they are only stories that only have power if we fuel them with our ego. I can choose to feel rejection and go into the drama of not being good enough or deserving but F*&K that shit! That story is boring and I have been living it for far too long! I am the only one that creates the life that I desire and deserve.

Broken hearts of abandonment and rejection could fill page after page. Yes they may have merit to where I have been and who I am today but I no longer allow it to be part of the big picture that I am creating right now. I know that the universe tests us time and time again until we get the lesson. So for me right now I am going to dream big and accept prosperity and opportunities because I know that this is all part of the big picture and the life that I am living. So thank you for the redirections that you so kindly offered, I now know that I am being pushed to serve more, shine my light and to be the best version of me. I think big and I allow myself to accept even more. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

With love

Sonia

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39. I accept opportunities when they come my way. I feel confident about my future.

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I love the timing of the affirmation presented to me today. I am in the middle of transition with my job at the moment with a contract about to finish. I am putting my feelers up to see what it out there and have dabbled in a few applications. Today I received my first official, “thanks but no thanks” email. For the first time ever I was really cool with it. Rather than go into the mode of “Oh no I just got a rejection email” my first thought was oh well clearly that wasn’t meant to be for me right now and the universe has a different door that I am meant to walk through.

So as one door closes I am confident that brand new ones will open and I am really excited. My dad is an extremely funny and no nonsense kind of man. He is a straight shooter and has an opinion about everything. His way is ALWAYS the right way. So the other day when I mentioned to him that I was looking for work as a contract was ending he took an opportunity to tell me that I am always changing jobs, that I never stay in one place and after that I just heard blah blah. Rather than retaliate I had a laugh and said “dad you are absolutely right!” I love change and it means that life is never boring. He still carried on and continued with his story (as he does) and it was a great reminder that life is about perception. I especially love the quote by Dr Wayne Dyer “When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change” My dad is one of my greatest teachers. He teaches me to be relentless in what I want to achieve and reminds me about patience, acceptance and compassion. There was a time when a conversation such at the one mentioned would have ended in an argument but I acknowledge that there is truth in what he is saying. The difference is I am not seeking his approval, not his nor of anybody else. I love myself enough to know that the only approval that is important is mine.

So for now as I transition to a new phase in my life I have complete trust and faith that doors will open. As I have already witnessed some doors may not open and that it totally cool as well. I approve and love myself for who I am and know that I am worthy of receiving the best possible opportunities that will fulfil my life purpose and passion. So for now it is about learning to surrender, to trust and know that everything will be exactly the way it is meant to. I feel that the path ahead is cleared of all obstacles for an exciting future that is filled with magic and miracles. I accept opportunities that come my way.  I feel confident about my future. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Lots of love

Sonia

xxo

How I am riding the waves of my grief.

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No matter how much we look at our lives, the reality is that each day we are closer to our death. May sound pretty morbid or could be super exciting to make sure that we leave no stone unturned on our life path. Last night I spent the night with a friend who had lost her mother earlier that day. I felt OK during the process and we sat and chatted about “stuff” her mum, especially the things that she did and said. All in all it was a bitter sweet evening. I tossed and turned all night as I reminded myself why I was sleeping next to my friend. I didn’t want her to be alone and she didn’t want to by herself. Understandably so and for one night all I could do was lie next to her. Sometimes that is all we need from another, to just hold the space and be there.

It is May and this year grief has been in my face. My aunt died suddenly, my cousin committed suicide a few months later, and a beloved furbaby was dying in front of my eyes, an old neighbour passed and now the death of my friends mum. Yup one could say I am in the midst of grief. Is it good? Is it bad? Does it even need to be defined? What I do know is that is a massive rollercoaster of emotions.

What I have learnt most is to ride it as best as I possibly know how. So this morning when I got home I thought about my Nonna the matriarch of our family and tried to muster her strength, determination and wisdom. I found her tribute DVD, watched it and sobbed like a baby. Some may think it may not have been the best of decisions considering how fragile I was feeling but the therapy of releasing was exactly what my body was yearning.

There is no magical handbook nor is there a wand to make it go away. What I am beginning to learn about myself in grief is to really be gentle and in those moments to learn from what is going on. It is inevitable and we are all going to die. I get it. What I don’t want to do is shove down my grief so that it manifests into other “stuff” in my life that is not healthy or is detrimental. The fun or not so fun thing about grief is that with each death or situation that presents if there is something that you haven’t dealt with it pops up, just like magic. Rest assured it will happen. It may transpire into anger, resentment or bitterness so best to feel it and begin to heal.

I am not an expert in the field of grief and loss and nor do I claim to be, what I do know about is my own grief and my own experiences. Honour your grief and be happy that you are actually feeling. Having lived depression there is nothing worse than not being able to feel at all. Be grateful that you are feeling. Sit with your pain and hurt and give yourself permission to cry. The release is insurmountable and the relief is instant. It doesn’t make it go away but it soothes the soul somewhat. Don’t shove down your tears, let them out and crying is just as important as laughing.  Allow yourself to receive. Tell people you love and trust that you are not OK and know that you are safe and loved. There is so much strength in our vulnerability and it allows us to grow.

For me writing is an outlet that allows me to express the gazillion things that go on in my head. It allows me to clear the fog and I am able to make sense on what is going on for me. To own what is mine and to be still in the moments of what I am feeling. Find what works for you and allowing yourself to be involved in creative energy can be magical.

We are all on this planet for an amount of time to fulfil a purpose, to love and to fully live the lives that we were meant to live. Living each day as if it is your last to some may sound erratic and crazy. My interpretation is to live with no regret and to know that each decision and action that I make is from love and compassion for me, for those around me and the world in which I live. Grief can be one of our toughest lessons that we will ever learn and at times we feel like we are literally being dragged through the mud, thrown around and beaten up. What I do know is that there is no easy fix, there is no one solution other than to show up, be in the moment, feel and explore the emotions as they come up. In the midst of the wave there is a break and love always transpires.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

With huge love

Sonia

xxoo

 

 

37. I focus on being positive because the thoughts I think and the words I speak create my experiences.

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I reckon I have a pretty good idea on how this affirmation works for me; after all I spent a whole year writing each day about finding a positive in each situation that was presented to me. For me this was one of the biggest achievements that I have been able to accomplish and what I could have potentially perceived as the worst year of my life ended up being one of the best.

I can manage to turn a situation around pretty quickly these days and can truly understand and appreciate that all happens exactly the way it is meant to. What I am really aware of is my self-talk. For example I saw a picture of myself last night and the first thing that I commented on was that it looked like I had a food baby. In that moment I didn’t stop and consider that a beautiful family picture had also been taken, instead it was about the food baby that I had perceived. Interestingly enough today I felt blah. My body felt heavy and I didn’t feel great about myself. Call it a coincidence, call it whatever you want, what I do know is that the proof is in the pudding. It is not about judging my thoughts, rather acknowledging how much our thoughts affect the way that we feel. (by the way I quite possibly did have a food baby because I ate the best dinner and lots of it!)

It doesn’t mean that we have to be in a constant state of happy when we are not, instead being mindful of what our thoughts and words are. When we are mindful and completely in the moment it allows us to be in gratitude for where we are in that particular moment. It is about love in action for each and every person and soul that exists, because there is a bit of us in each of us.

There may be a slight uproar stir as you digest that there is a little of us in each of us. I am not a murderer, nor do I solicit violent acts, so how could this possibly be? To the teenage in Melbourne that had planned to bomb and kill people, how do we support love and action in these circumstances? The 17 year old boy at some stage of his life has stumbled in the face of acceptance (one can assume). We can only imagine that when a young person is looking towards a group of violent acts that there is pain, anger that needs to be addressed. So in some point of your life there surely would have been pain or anger? Ok so you didn’t plan on bombing a group of people but the emotion existed. So all I am saying is that rather than think and speak about the possible destruction how about giving compassion with detachment a go. You don’t have to agree with what is happening and nor do you have to condone it but you can send compassion and love to the situation and pray for a far better outcome than the one we are currently in. I focus on being positive because the thoughts I think and the words I speak create my experiences. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

 

 

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

 

36. I have plenty of time to do what I need to do. Time expands for me.

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The thoughts at the forefront of my mind are of a dear furbaby that passed away today. My head is still reeling from the events and I almost thought about going straight to bed and pretending it didn’t happen. What I have also realised is stuffing my emotions down doesn’t work either. Earlier today my sister and I were driving down a busy main road, there was a man frantically wanting to cross the road. We slowed down to make sure he was Ok and there he was on the side of the road yelling in pure pain that his dog had just been hit. It was heartbreaking.

I wish I was writing this story differently but I am not. We stopped and assisted him in any way we could. It was futile and he was losing a lot of blood. So many people stopped and tried to assist in any way they could. Unfortunately the driver did not. There was a few of us that ended up meeting him at the vet but the darling furbaby had gone. Complete strangers who had come to help a man and his dog. It was just devastating. His shrills of mercy that his dog had been hit is is gut-wrenching.

So as I sit and write about having plenty of time to so what I need to do I am in slight conflict. Time is truly of the essence and I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. I can’t explain why the beautiful German Shepherd dog was hit and later died but it has come as a harsh reminder that life is so very precious and everything can change in an instant. It doesn’t mean that we have to live life in fear and anxious. Rather for me right now it is a timely reminder about being in the moment and it is truly all we have.

My sister and I witnessed the tragedy tonight for whatever reason. I know that after work, I hadn’t planned to go for a run but I did. I didn’t intend to go past my sister’s house but I did and there was never any plan to drive her to work. None the less I did and in the midst of it I was witness to a man losing his best friend. Life smacks you in the face sometimes and puts it all into perspective.

So on reflection what I do know and feel about time is being in the now. When we are in crisis we are so present. To be grateful for every moment, even when it is painful for this is where precious humanity is witnessed and we all come together as one. A harsh realisation that we understand this in troubled times. For if this was the way of the world each and every day justice would prevail. We are all connected, we are all one. To the dear furbaby that grew his wings today, may your flight be peaceful and loving. Thank you for your lesson of love.  I have plenty of time to do what I need to do. Time expands for me.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

 

 

35. I am patient, tolerant and diplomatic. My words and actions are healing.

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Well the first thing that comes to mind when I read the affirmation for today is “You can take a girl out of Reservoir but you can’t take Rezza out of a girl” (whatever that may mean). What it does mean to me is there are times where I can be completely feral and my words and actions are far from healing. I can be the sweetest of flowers and on the flipside I can act like an angry bull. For most of the time I am smiling and I love the world but low and behold there are also the moments when I am full of drama and a little crazy. After all I am Italian :)  What I have learnt to recognise is that these parts are all of me, good, bad and ugly. These are the shadows that I have now learnt to embrace.

Too often we try to shy away from who we really are. We are afraid to be vulnerable, we have a fear of being exposed if we are seen to be acting too sad, happy, angry or whatever. It’s time to get real and just be who we were born to be. Obviously we all need to be responsible for our actions. I am not suggesting that we go on an angry rampage, or live out our secret demons of wanting to sometimes punch people in the face. Instead what I am saying is that we just show up! Show up in your full integrity and authenticity and just be you.

We can be so afraid of not being accepted into whatever so we put on different layers and masks to “fit in”. The true essence of who we are and what we were born to do diminishes and we detour from life. Trust me I was great at this for a lone time. Almost 20 years in fact  (yup sometimes  it takes me a while to learn lessons) I was in relationships where I believed if I just did this or  that I would be loved and accepted more. Guess what it didn’t work. It is not about blaming the other person in fact my past loves are my greatest teachers and I only have universal love and compassion for them. (possibly would have liked to punch their face at some point, but I didn’t. LOL).

My most valuable lessons are that I am awesome and beautiful by just being me. My greatest relationship is the one that I have with myself. So when I reflect on the affirmation for today it is about firstly being patient, tolerant and diplomatic with my true self.  For when I am in the perfect relationship with me, it transpires onto everything and everyone else that I am in contact with. I am far from perfect in fact I am imperfectly perfect! What I do know is that each day is a new beginning and life is right now. I am patient, tolerant and diplomatic. My words and actions are healing. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo