18. Everyone changes, and I allow change in everyone.

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Oh my, how things change but how bloody boring life would be if it all stayed the same. Sometimes change is forced upon us and hits us like a brick wall and we really don’t know what to do with it. There are other times when change shakes our whole world inside out and upside down. Change can cause us to be incredibly anxious and fearful. If we didn’t change it would simply be groundhog day and not sure about you but quite frankly I much prefer spontaneity and excitement to dull and dreary. There is a simple saying that I love and allows me to take responsibility for what happens in my life and it states “For things to change. First I must change” Simple but ever so true.

One of the most gracious gifts that we can deliver to ourselves is personal responsibility. When things happen in life we often look for a scape goat or a reason as to why it has occurred. Life presents us with challenges on so many levels. At times it feels like are climbing a never ending mountain only for an avalanche to occur and we are right back to where we have started. It feels like crap and we have every right to be tired and weary. What can happen in these instances is that we can simply fall into a heap at the bottom (which is totally OK) or we can rest and find the courage and strength to start again. It doesn’t mean either way that we have failed rather it reminds us that there is so much strength in our vulnerability and allowing change to happen around is simply part of the process. Sometimes the avalanche has to occur in order for us to simply stop and allow change to occur. When we don’t listen the universe certainly forces us to, which then allows time to refocus and continue on the path we are meant to travel.

Sometimes change feel like a slap in the face and it takes a while to embrace what has actually occurred. Other times the change is so fricken awesome and it welcome so many opportunities. Allowing others to change is liberating, sometimes that may mean that the path once shared is no longer but I truly believe that it is part of a divine plan that leads us to extraordinary things. I can speak with experience about this for each time I have felt betrayed or rejected by something or someone it has only been because the universe had bigger and better plans for me. I no longer choose to get up in the drama or why, where and how it all occurred. It is irrelevant. Life is too precious for that. It doesn’t mean that I do not feel but when you only come from a place of love and compassion there is no other way. Everyone changes, and I allow change in everyone. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

 

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

17. Harmony surrounds me. All is well in my world.

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I’ve refrained all day from writing my blog because quite frankly I haven’t really wanted to feel. I spent two days away after the funeral of my aunt, which was exactly what I needed. The death of a family member is something that we all will or have experienced at some time or another and for each of us the feelings and emotions are different. What is real is grief and coming home last night noticing the red rose that we received from her coffin stared me in the face. The whole thing had actually happened, but it was time for bed and I went to sleep. This morning when I got up and climbed down my stairs it was the first thing I noticed and again I realised that it was real.

So as I glanced upon the affirmation today on several occasions. I didn’t want to write about all being well in my world because I felt like crap! My body feels tired, my heart feels heavy and the realisation that life can all too quickly pass us by is so bloody real. I know it has only been a  few short weeks and I am sure there will be many more moments, hours or days when I may feel like this again but right now it feels so raw and hurts so much. I can’t pretend nor do I want to but what I can do is allow myself to feel harmony in a way that I know how.

So for today I am being compassionate to myself and looking after me the way I know how. I would love to drink a few bottles of red wine and pretend it never happened but I also know it will come back until I deal with whatever it is that I am feeling at the time. So for now I will cry the tears that I need to cry, lie in Mother Earth and allow her to cradle my body so I can soak up her loving energy, listen to music, mediate and make myself a big fat bowl of popcorn and watch a movie. This is all I can muster for today. I may never be able to physically touch her again but I know that if I close my eyes I can feel her in my soul and heart and this brings me harmony. Harmony surrounds me. All is well in my world. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

16. I get plenty of sleep every night, and my body appreciates how I take care of it.

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(spending time with my niece :)

I have spent the last couple of days away down at the beach and have caught up on much needed rest and sleep. The last few weeks have been emotionally exhausting with the passing of my dear aunt and my body is weary and tired. The last few days have been such a blessing for some rest which has allowed my body to be amongst Mother Nature and to absorb her beautiful energy.

I know my body all too well and for me not getting enough rest as with anybody does not allow me to do the things that I love to do with grace and ease. I know that when I have not slept enough I crave sugary and fatty foods the next day, my concentration is poor and I lack motivation and enthusiasm. Sounds like pretty simply mathematics and logic to me. However there are still times when we abuse our bodies and do not take care of ourselves as they deserve.

One of the biggest triggers for me when I was unwell with mania which ultimately led to hospitalisation was that I could not sleep. This was caused by my body being under huge amounts of pressure and stress and not taking care of it as what it deserved. Hindsight is great and I did not know or appreciate to love my body and self the way I do now. So now when my body does not have the sleep that it requires I ensure that I rest and recuperate as I honour my body and all that it allows me to do. It is also about not abusing my body with toxic food, substances or alcohol as I also know all too well how this impacts your body and life. Hard lessons to learn but ones in which I am grateful for they have taught me about what I do not want in my life.

The last few nights have been pretty cool as I have been spending time with my niece and we have slept and snuggled together at night. It is times like these that I truly treasure and I have loved the relaxing nature of being away, reading and taking the time out that my body has truly required. My body deserves it. I get plenty of sleep every night, and my body appreciates how I take care of it. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

 

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

15. I am always able to make the correct decision. I recognise my own intuitive ability.

 

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Our intuition is our own inner compass yet there are times when we still tend to ignore that gut feeling or inner knowing.  Trusting ourselves and what we feel is really important to our soul and being. Ego tends to get in the way and when we are not in our natural state of love our intuition can be mistaken with what our head is thinking. The connection between our head and heart is one that creates grace and life is at ease.

For a very long time I lived in my head and to be perfectly honest it is crap. It creates anxiety, depression and a great platform for mental illness to survive and thrive. Trust me I have all too well about this scenario and it is not pleasant. Furthermore it takes a toll on our bodies and creates stress which leads to disease and we do not live our lives with ease. When we finally can learn to live in our heart space it is one of the most liberating feelings that we are able to experience. It is authentic and it is real.

For me each day leads me more and more to about focusing on compassion towards myself and others and knowing that ultimately we are all connected and that we are all one. This is the way that recognising our own intuition becomes the only way that we do live and ultimately leads to living from a place of truth in all areas of all our lives. This allows us to be free of the masks that we so often wear in order to protect ourselves from feeling what is going on for us. We hide from the truth and find it uncomfortable to live with rejection, betrayal, so on and so forth. Feelings that can only live if we are living with fear due to living a life when we are not being true to ourselves.

So when we consider making the correct decisions for ourselves it is when we are in our truth and living in our heart space that we are guided by our intuition. A place where freedom lives and knowing that whatever the outcome may be at any certain time is exactly where it is meant to be. For me right now, I am listening to my intuition and the way I feel more that I have ever done. By doing so it leads me to places of bliss that I love and learn by. Even if my intuition leads me to a place where my feelings and path may be challenged I know that there is a divine purpose and path. I am always able to make the correct decision. I recognise my own intuitive ability. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

14. Every moment presents a wonderful opportunity to become more of who I am.

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The now is all we have, this second this moment. Everything that happened in the past is exactly that anything that is about to happen will. So being the moment and in the now is such a precious gift to give to yourself and to those around you. Being you and the most authentic version of you is even more important. So often we walk through life being versions of what other people want us to be. We are playing the role of other identities that do not serve and ultimately we suffer in our own existence.  We sometimes make allowances or find excuses of who we think we should be.  When we “should” in our lives it compares to “shitting” on ourselves and not sure bout you but that doesn’t feel pleasant.

Life teaches us so much and each experience and moment that we have teaches us more about who we are. No matter what the experience is good or bad it allows us to show up and be who we really are. How do we know who we really are? I know for me this is something that I continue to discover and only until the separation of my last relationship did that really begin to unravel for me. To be perfectly honest I had thought that I had it all worked it out. My life was fine or as once defined to me (F*D UP INSECURE NEUROTIC EMOTIONAL MESS). It not for me to judge this time in my life and go back and do my head in about but the difference is the way I lead my life now is that I am totally comfortable with who I am. That doesn’t mean I stop learning. Actually it is quite the contrary.

Death of a family member shakes your world and turns it upside down. For me there is still so much to process and that is totally OK. For me it is also about a family that once was now has somebody missing it and life is never quite the same. That doesn’t have to make it bad. Instead what it does for me is to absolutely be me and unapologetically so. That doesn’t mean that I don’t give a rats about anybody else rather it makes me wants to grab life by the reins and live the life that we are meant to live. This means to take risks, make mistakes and love unconditionally. To remove the masks that make us comfortable, to move beyond our comfort zones and to know that being the most authentic version of you is the greatest gift that you can give yourself and to the world in which you live. Every moment presents a wonderful opportunity to become more of who I am. Blessed be and so it is so it is done. Namaste

 

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

 

Sonia

Xoo

12. I am never stuck, for I can choose new thoughts and new ways of thinking.

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My auntie passed away a few days ago and my thoughts and world right now is surrounded by her death. My thoughts and feelings change from hour to hour so when I read the affirmation for today I am reflecting about the way I have been feeling. That is not to say that I don’t have the right to feel sad, confused, bewildered, shocked but rather what I focus on can be different. This does not take it away from the grief as I am also comfortable sitting in my sorrow if that is what it needs to be for now. What I don’t want to focus on is her dead body for I know this is not who she is nor is it for any of us who we are.

Since I began my blog almost two years ago there are few tough situations that I have to deal with, death of such a close family member has not been one of them. What I do know is the closeness that it brings and how precious humanity is. My most profound feelings right now is just how much our bodies are just that, yet we work so bloody much on looking good, being plucked, pruned and it the end it doesn’t bloody matter anyway. What we leave is our soul and as far as I am concerned this is what requires the most attention during our lives. The body in which we travel during this lifetime requires so much love and attention from us in the most beautiful of ways and we especially should love every single aspect that it brings cellulite, stretch marks and all. So instead of thinking about seeing my aunt’s dead body and not liking the way that feels for me I can change my thoughts and be grateful for what it did for her during her 76 years of living on this earth. Furthermore it allows me to love my body even more so I am able to do what I desire with freedom and health.

Our thoughts can consume so much of our head space, so if your thoughts are shitty and dull you will only attract more of the same as this is the energy that will be attracted. I am not saying that you just turn it around and you become happy but changing focus, seeing it from another perspective creates new avenues and thoughts patterns to exist. I am never stuck, for I can always choose new thoughts and new ways of thinking. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste

 

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

12. I am never stuck, for I can choose new thoughts and new ways of thinking.

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My auntie passed away a few days ago and my thoughts and world right now is surrounded by her death. My thoughts and feelings change from hour to hour so when I read the affirmation for today I am reflecting about the way I have been feeling. That is not to say that I don’t have the right to feel sad, confused, bewildered, shocked but rather what I focus on can be different. This does not take it away from the grief as I am also comfortable sitting in my sorrow if that is what it needs to be for now. What I don’t want to focus on is her dead body for I know this is not who she is nor is it for any of us who we are.

Since I began my blog almost two years ago there are few tough situations that I have to deal with, death of such a close family member has not been one of them. What I do know is the closeness that it brings and how precious humanity is. My most profound feelings right now is just how much our bodies are just that, yet we work so bloody much on looking good, being plucked, pruned and it the end it doesn’t bloody matter anyway. What we leave is our soul and as far as I am concerned this is what requires the most attention during our lives. The body in which we travel during this lifetime requires so much love and attention from us in the most beautiful of ways and we especially should love every single aspect that it brings cellulite, stretch marks and all. So instead of thinking about seeing my aunt’s dead body and not liking the way that feels for me I can change my thoughts and be grateful for what it did for her during her 76 years of living on this earth. Furthermore it allows me to love my body even more so I am able to do what I desire with freedom and health.

Our thoughts can consume so much of our head space, so if your thoughts are shitty and dull you will only attract more of the same as this is the energy that will be attracted. I am not saying that you just turn it around and you become happy but changing focus, seeing it from another perspective creates new avenues and thoughts patterns to exist. I am never stuck, for I can always choose new thoughts and new ways of thinking. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste

 

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

11. Being around my pets and feeling their unconditional love makes me feel so good.

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(Fozzi joining us in”Walk for Prems”)

When I first saw the affirmation for today my heart sank as I felt my three furbabies. I had shared three of the most loving pets with my ex-partner for 7 years. Britches had passed away at the age of 19, I am grateful that I was able to love and cherish Maydies’s love for the 7 years that we were together. Charlotte was a kitten and she offered me her unconditional love for 2 years that she was a part of my life. Love that I am able to hold and cherish in my heart forever.  For various circumstances they both remained in their home. There are times when I wake up and I can swear I have heard them or felt their presence around me. It comforts me and makes me smile and I know that they are being divinely looked after. I don’t dwell in the past rather I am honoured, blessed and grateful for the lesson they taught me and the love they so willingly gave. For now I have the furbabies that belongs to my sisters’ families to love and cherish Abbey, Fozzi, Jazzi & Felix.

The amount of love that I feel for animals is insurmountable and their unconditional love is such a gift. Pets in in one’s life can often make such a significant impact of healing and love that is overwhelming. For me right now I have a fish. His name is Romeo, it definitely is not the same as having a pet you can hold but I do take great delight in cleaning his fish tank each week and ensuring he has his own special place that he resides. I considered greatly getting a furbaby and went as far as almost adopting a beautiful pup that had been abandoned, but right now my lifestyle does not equate to the level of responsibility required to nurture and love a pet. It was one of the most challenging decisions that I have had to make, but I know in my heart that it also the right one for me. So for now I relish in the pets of my family and friends and am so grateful for the love that I have shared with my very own furbabies.

Animals do not have a voice so I pray and take action where possible to end their pointless suffering that as human we inhibit onto them. There are so many animal organisations that protect animals and it is important that we all take some action to ensure their safety and wellbeing as each small step makes a huge difference in their lives. My prayer is that all animals are treated with the dignity and respect that they deserve because we are all connected and we are all one. Being around my pets and feeling their unconditional love makes me feel so good! Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

13. It is my birthright to share in the abundance and prosperity of this world.

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I am few days behind in writing my blog and instead of catching up with the last couple of days I decided to stay in the now. My dear auntie passed away last night so it did not feel right to go back and “catch up” on the last couple of days of not having written. Her name is Isabella and she was 76 years young. Her cause of death is still unknown but at this stage it believed that she had a stroke. It all feels very surreal as I sit here and gather my feelings about life. What I do know is to write. When I looked at the affirmation for her date of death it could not have been more appropriate or significant.

For me the affirmation means that it is our absolute birthright to share in the abundance and prosperity of the world and there is no greater way than dealing with death than to really feel and believe that it is so true. Being alive right now feels so abundant! It doesn’t feel like it has actually happened and then the vision of her soulless body comes into my mind and I am focused on how true it all is. It was a much unexpected death and seeing her in this way was like being punched in the guts, with a feeling of not being able to breathe and take in what was actually happening.

Nobody can tell us for sure an account of what happens to us when we die and in some ways I am not entirely sure that I want to know.  I know that there are messages from our deceased loved ones all the time and this brings me much comfort right now. Only a short while ago the word “angel” that I have sitting on a window sill fell. I like to think that it was a reminder that she will always be around.

There is no greater time than to be in the now when dealing with a death\crisis. That is all you have. I watched and felt a room full of people contemplate knowing that their mum, wife, sister and aunt was no longer living on this earth at this time. It makes me feel like I can’t breathe but I also know that her is certain amount of strength and courage that she leaves behind as does each and every one of us. It is especially at these times when the values of compassion, love, peace and harmony are at the forefront of what is happening in our lives and it leaves us feeling so vulnerable.

To be perfectly honest I am not sure exactly what I am feeling right now. There is a sense of urgency that life is so bloody short and I want to make each moment count. There is a sense of being easy on myself and just going with whatever is coming up and then there is a part of me that want to keep busy so I don’t remind myself that she is gone. She may certainly be gone from this lifetime but I know that she has spread her wings to be amongst the angels that surround us each and every day. Our journey on earth may have ended Zia but I know that wherever you are shining brightly and I am eternally grateful for all you the abundance and prosperity you have shared in this lifetime. It is my birthright to share in the abundance and prosperity in the world. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

10. I am on a path where positive thinking and optimistic attitude guide all my choices.

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Thank Buddha\Allah\God\Me whoever that I am on this path! Back in February 2013 I began an experiment that I would turn anything negative in my life into a positive. There is a whole story attached to that year but quite frankly I much prefer to live in the now. What I can say is that it totally works and being mindful of every word and thought that we speak and think is huge on so many levels.  I was speaking with a friend today and we were speaking about situations in our lives, things that had happened and simply stuff. What we were both grateful about was that although situations may happen in our lives, and you may very well be upset offended it is the way that you deal with it that makes a huge difference.

You can choose to rant and rave about it or put your big girl undies, learn from it and speak lovingly rather than with distaste. A big lesson for me as I am know that there have been many occasions where I have participated in idle gossip or bitched and moaned about others. I am happy to eat humble pie, it doesn’t always taste great as it about you being vulnerable and uncomfortable but far out I would prefer that than staying the same. It is something I choose not to partake in any longer as the vibration of the energy does not resonate with me. More importantly it does not align with my values or compassion or being of service to humanity.

There are so many other issues in the world that require attention.  Today I learnt of the news that over 2,000 people were massacred in Nigeria. I have sat here for a while now and wondered how the hell I speak positively about that when all I feel is pure heartbreak and devastation for the precious souls that lost their loves to reckless and pointless killing. What I have been able to come up with is that it has further affirmed that I don’t want to waste time on “drama & stories”. Life is travelling at lightning speed and I want to live each moment doing what is of importance and significance. Idle gossip and “stuff” does not equate to justice and compassion. Sure “stuff & stories” will always come up but it is how they are dealt with that makes the difference and allows the positive outcomes and attitudes to occur. I am on a path where positive thinking and optimistic attitude guide all my choices. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

 

Sonia

Xoo