I am comfortable with my power at work. Because my power comes from my heart, it is always loving, gentle and just.

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Wowsers this topic has come up so much from me in the last week that when I saw it as the affirmation for today I wanted to avoid it because quite frankly, I didn’t want to. But in true universe style I know that the lessons always come to me when I need to learn them for whatever reason. I know that there are no mistakes and when I don’t hear and learn from it is that I meant to the lesson will just keep presenting itself. Nearly every day in the last week my power and what I do has come up. For me it is about recognising my own talents and to trust that I am a powerful woman without cringing when I say it. To know and truly understand that true power does come from your heart.

For me today this affirmation feels very poignant for so many reasons. As I am writing the song that is on the radio is from Wilson Phillips – “Hold On”. The lyrics read;

“Why do you lock yourself up in these chains?

No one can change your life except for you

Don’t let anyone step all over you

Just open your heart and your mind

Is it really fair to feel this way inside?”

 

Oh the irony on how we receive messages some times. I can’t tell you how many times I have heard that song over the years and never has it meant more to me than what it does right now.  I truly love the way the universe works and believe me it is very persistent and messages can be delivered to you in so many ways. Considering the amount of conversations that I have had about this very topic this week I know that it is an absolute confirmation about stepping into what I already know. It is about standing in my own power that is straight from the heart and is always loving, gentle and just. Right now I feel like getting that tattoo tattooed on my forehead so I can never ever forgot what it means to me. No more playing small, no more being so bloody afraid of my own power to step up and say yes to success.

It truly amazes me as humans just how much we like to complicate our own journey and path. The universe generally sets out a clear path for us to follow. Being the intricate and analytical beings that we sometimes tend to create these ginormous blocks. We then have to navigate our way around all the challenges we have just created for ourselves. Such a disservice and what a headF*&K! I guess as cliché as it sounds it is all a part of the journey but such a long and hard road we make it for ourselves. I get that we learn what we have to at the perfect time but if you are reading this right now and contemplating about stepping up, take it from me this is a sign to know that you are perfect just the way you are. This has been an awesome lesson for me and I am grateful for all it has taught me along the way, but really it did take a while for the penny to drop. For the angels that presented this week to teach me the lesson, thank you from my heart to yours.  I am comfortable with my power at work. Because my power comes from my heart, it is always loving, gentle and just. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

With HUGE love

Sonia

xxoo

I love myself exactly the way I am. I am good enough!

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Here we go the good old lesson of loving self. I looked at the affirmation for today and thought “I am really not in the mood to write about loving myself. As I reflected I realised that it was most probably the best thing that I can do.  I am tired and a little grumpy today. I can’t say that I am in a bad mood but possibly not the chirpiest to be around. But you know what I am good enough! It is not about striving to be better it is about accepting that where I am right now .

Right now in Melbourne it is in the middle of winter. I am trying really hard to appreciate all of our glorious seasons but there are times when the cold just doesn’t cut it for me and I want to hibernate like a bear. In fact there are things about being a bear that I find quite appealing. I would be totally happy to let ALL the hairs on my body just grow and I could just lie, sit, eat, sleep and do whatever really. It is perfectly OK to feel any way we choose as long as we don’t unpack and stay there. So for now if feeling like a bear appeals as much to you as it does to me feel it and embrace it. For me this is what it means to love myself exactly the way I am.

Too often in life we consider that the only times that we are lovable is when we feel happy or our lives are filled with joy. Instead for me it is about finding the balance about what life is offering you and to find the gift of the moments and experiences that are offered. Sometimes the gifts are found in the most inopportune ways and you simply sit back and appreciate it for exactly what it is.

I am happily single and happily looking for the perfect life partner. What I do know is that in order for the universe to deliver me the perfect relationship I have to love and embrace all parts of me, even the grumpy and hairy ones. Ok the hairy part may not be so appealing even to me but none the less I still love and accept me exactly the way I am. Too often I hear people complain about their relationship and what the other person is doing or not doing. Little do we sometimes realise that it is what we lack in ourselves that is simply being mirrored to us. I know for me personal responsibility is a huge part of my life and it is something that I value deeply. It doesn’t mean that you never do anything that is out of place rather you are willing to learn and grow from what is being presented. So I can sit here and be like a bear for the night (which is exactly what I plan to do) but personal responsibility prevails and tomorrow is a brand new day. For now I love the grumpy bear within me and I am perfect just the way I am. I love myself exactly the way I am. I am good enough! Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

 

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

 

With Love

Sonia

xxxo

My life is joyously balanced between work and play.

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The irony of this affirmation is that it is like a big fat red siren is going off to tell me that there is no balance between work and play for me right now. That is not to say that I all I am doing is working rather in my down time there is not that much fun going on. The last week has been flat and a bit blah for me. I feel like my energy has been zapped and whilst my work is something that I love it is also at a crossroads.  An interesting time for me to say the least and it feels like I can completely reinvent whatever it is that I want to do. At least for most of the time this is what I want it to feel like. Instead big fat ego tends to take over and I go into worry mode. We all know what good worry does. (BIG FAT NOTHING!) It gives us a headache, does not allow up to be in the moment and worst of all we miss the miracles and beauty that life has to offer as we are so preoccupied with what might be.

So last night I decided to ground and surrender my feelings of worry and scattered thoughts over to the angels and universe. I went to a group mediation session and it was the best thing I could have done for myself. More importantly it was fun! Far out life can be so serious sometimes and I definitely need to make sure that I am taking time out for me to have fun! Funny or not is that we have to remind ourselves that we need to make sure that we have fun. Sounds ridiculous but hey no judgement going on here.

Each month the affirmation calendar that I write from has a quote for the month. For July it reads “This month I look for ways to prove to myself that I unconditionally love and appreciate who I am. Oh this is going to be fun!” There we have the theme of having fun and play come up again. It also came up in my meditation last night so I know that there is no coincidence that I have received this message twice in less than 24hrs. I am sure that the bowl of sugar in the coco pops that I just ate did not indicate that I love myself unconditionally but none the less I enjoyed every snap, crackle and pop! What this does remind me about is to be gentle and loving and to know that it is an awesome time to go over my goals, dreams and wishes. What better time than on a full moon. I have just written a letter to the universe to surrender any obstacles and challenges that are associated with the future. It I keep worrying about it then I will simply attract more worrying situations. So I am getting off the worry train and getting on the fun train! Part of loving self unconditionally is to know that although there may be times where I may feel flat, that I am as we all are imperfectly perfect. My life is joyously balanced between work and play. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

 

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Huge love

Sonia

xoxoxo

I am mentally and emotionally equipped to enjoy a loving prosperous life.

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I have forced myself to write today as I know that this is the best therapy for me and also a  sure way that I am able to get out of my head and into my heart space. Writing keeps me real. It is ironic that the affirmation for today is about being mentally and emotionally equipped because right now I feel vulnerable and somewhat fragile. I can’t quite pinpoint what it is and nor do I have to define it. Rather what I can do is just feel what is.

It has been just over a week since I have returned from Cambodia and I always find that there is certainly an adjustment period. It takes me time to align to the world that I am so fortunate to live in. It is a time that I am certainly able to reflect and feel into the next stage and chapter of my life. There are times in my return where I feel melancholy and I have just learnt that this is what I need to feel into. From the pits of sadness great things happen.

Funnily enough I went to see a movie last night called “Inside Out”. One of the best movies I have seen in a long time. Although it is a children’s movie the message was universal and so relevant. Too often in life we have this expectation on how we are meant to feel. When stuff doesn’t quite go the way is expected we don’t quite know what to do with it and then become afraid or uneasy about what is going on for us.  For me the movie that I watched last night was such an affirmation about honouring ALL feelings. Most importantly it was able to remind me that without sadness happiness cannot exist. So in sadness greatness does exist. For without one the other cannot be. So instead of looking at sadness as something that we need to overcome it is about finding the silver lining within the experience.

Right now I could not be more thankful my years of depression as they have taught me so many aspects of self that without it I would not have known even existed. The courage, strength and resilience that I have been able to recognise within myself have been amongst the greatest gifts that I have received. It certainly may not have felt like it at the time but I know now that is the greatest gift of all.

I truly believe that sadness exists because it has to. I am not saying that living a depressed life is necessary but rather when and if we do find ourselves in this situation it is such a dynamic opportunity to delve in and see what it is that we need to find within ourselves. To connect to our truth and our heart space, to listen to our most important organ, our heart. For our heart never lies. I am mentally and emotionally equipped to enjoy a loving prosperous life. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

With love

Sonia

xxxo

Just like the bright summer sun, I am a radiant being. Others feel safe and warm in my presence.

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Life presents us with many challenges; they can be good, bad or indifferent. It is the way that we deal with what life presents us with that makes the difference and how we choose to spend our lives. When I thought about what I was going to write about t today I reflected on what it meant for me. Right now for me it feels relatively easy to feel like a bright summer sun. I have just returned from a few weeks in Cambodia. I am home in Australia and have been filled up with so much love from my family and friends. I can connect to the affirmation and it would be easy peezzy to write about this from my perspective. Instead what I thought about was what it would be like right now for people who are not feeling like a ray of sunshine.

What has come up for me a lot lately is my own “story” of mental illness and how my own journey can help others. It feels like real life purpose stuff especially since my own cousin took her own life through suicide earlier this year. This is something that lives with me each and every day and turning this around is something that I am still working on for myself. What I do know is that while I was in Cambodia healing took place and one of the things that I was able to recognise is that a part of my purpose is to shed light and detach stigma from mental illness.

When you are in the depths of depression and the world that you are in is surrounded by darkness, there really is no point in telling somebody to affirm “I am a bright summer sun” You are likely to get a punch in the face or something of sorts. There is nothing more patronising than somebody telling you to think happy thoughts when you are in the depths of your darkness.

My personal journey about depression and psych admissions is recognising what got me to that place.  It is about how it has served me and ultimately also saving me. It is about recognising that I am not always a ray of FU*(N sunshine and sometimes I am like a thunderous lightning bolt. It is about appreciating that without darkness lightness cannot exist. It is in the depths of our darkness that true creativity and passion stirs. For if it is with that much determination that we are able to go inwards it is with the same strength and courage that we are able to turn this energy of darkness outwards and into the light.

So instead of this post being about others feeling safe and warm in my presence it is about acknowledging being who it is that you need to be at any given moment. To be proud and honour what it is that you are feeling. That it is Ok to feel whatever you want to feel and for those around you to be in that space of love and warmth. Ultimately it is about feeling safe to express, be vulnerable and just show up as you. Just like the bright summer sun, I am a radiant being. Others feel safe and warm in my presence. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

 

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day

With HUG love

Sonia

xoo

Every moment is a miracle. My life is filled with miracles.

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I am sitting in a transit lounge in Kuala Lumpur airport and feel so filled up with love and blessings. What a journey, what a week of triumphs, glory, heartache, grief and so many blessings in between. I have just spent a week with a group of people who I know will be in my life now and forever more. There is something uniquely special and magical about the tribe that we choose to surround ourselves with at any given times in our life. I know for me the people that I meet especially when I am working in Cambodia are connections that are full, authentic and filled with unconditional love.

For me there is no other way than to be in my complete heart space when I am in Cambodia. The gratitude that I feel when I am situated in a third world country is overwhelming. Yesterday we had a meeting with the Project Manager with the school community that we work with. I began to feel heavy hearted about all the despair, poverty and disadvantage in Cambodia. After having had such a fulfilling week it felt tiresome to feel all of the injustices that have been prevailed and my body felt it. I was tired and weary. By the end of the day we had received an email telling us about the ripple effect that goes through the community after we leave and how much it makes people more determined to achieve more. My heart was full again. A miracle happened.

This morning I got up and I felt lighter. I met a friend for breakfast but before I did I visited a Catholic church. I had felt an urge to visit all week and so this morning I did. There was a flyer that caught my eye. It read “To love and serve”; my heart felt that where I was exactly where I was meant to be. As I walked out of the church to my left was a statue of Mary and Jesus and for me it represented miracles. Regardless of belief and religion the connection of a miracle is simply what it is and in that moment I knew that I had felt a miracle of overwhelming peace. As I walked out of the church a monk walked passed. I knew I had felt all the signs I had been seeking and exactly why I was motivated to go the Catholic Church that I had passed every day while I had been in Cambodia. As I met my friend she had suggested that we go to the “Peace Café” and I simply smiled. No matter what happens in our lives there are miracles that surround us each and every moment we just have to be open to receiving them. Right now I can hear the giggle of a baby, the sweet sound of music, the chatter of my beautiful friends, I am breathing and I am alive. Miracles are everywhere. Every moment is a miracle. My life is filled with miracles. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

With love

Sonia

oxoxxoxo

I am a channel of peace. Every word, though and action that I take is PEACE.

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For last few weeks for some reason I have had a hymn that has been going through my head. “Make me a channel of your peace” which is a prayer of St Francis.  Today I sat and reflected of this hymn that has been playing time and time again in my thoughts I felt what it actually meant to me. As I spend time in Cambodia I learn so much and it makes me realise even more how much personal responsibility that we ALL need to take in the world! It is not just about spending time in a third world country but having an awareness of what makes our heart sing, what our gift is to the world and how honoured it is to share it with others.

In March this year I lost my cousin to suicide. It tore my heart and the pain and grief associated with her death has been immense. This week for me has been a myriad of emotions which have ranged from pure joy to such injustice and sadness. The magic of Cambodia is the contrast that it displays on so many levels and why I love it so much. I know my cousin has been by my side especially this week as I follow my heart and know that a lot of my healing has happened here. What I know even more now is how much the stigma of mental health needs to dissipate so we are able to heal and share our love and magic in the world.

I read a quote today that said “The greatest journey you will make is from your head to heart” This few words are so simple yet so profound and if I can sum up what gifts Cambodia has bestowed on me it would be my journey from my head to my heart. Depression and mental illness comes from living in your head. Living in our heads is fuckin dangerous and can only cause havoc and chaos in our minds and lives. It puts us into our own world and we do not have the capacity to go outwards and feel what it is that we need to feel for ourselves and others.

Being a channel of peace means for me that it is time to step up and be proud of what depression and mental illness represents. I feel that the death of my beloved cousin Cathy has been paired to shed hope, love and light to others. That the struggle of suicide is something that no person should ever feel is the answer. That we are all one in our beloved universe and we all have the ability share our own unique gifts and light in this world. If there is one gift that I am able to give to the world it is to shed hope and light to those that have ever felt that suicide is the answer. Discovering my journey from my head to my heart is one that comes from pain and grief but transcends to bliss and magic. I am a channel of peace. Every word, though and action that I take is PEACE. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow you day.

With love

Sonia

xoxo

I surrender, I trust that I am divinely guided and ALWAYS provided for.

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I have been in Cambodia for almost a week now. There is something majestic about this place and the life’s lessons that it always continues to offer me. There is always more to learn and the amount of gratitude continues to overwhelm me.  For me it is not only about being of service but also a time to reflect on my own life and to recognise my next steps, my future leaps of faith.  I have found it quite funny that I am unable to locate the affirmation quotes that I usually write from. I have all my stuff in a bedroom and I know that they are here but I can’t find them Surprise Surprise, the universe is forcing me to step up and write my own.

I have decided to focus about trust and surrender in a country that is filled with some much poverty and disadvantage. The resilience that the people of Cambodia are able to muster considering their life and what little they have never ceases to amaze me. Their smiles are always so generous and their gratitude so humble. I am working on a project which is called “The Dump Project”   Some families and children literally live on the “dump”. It is here that they collect rubbish to make a living and sometimes find the only food that they are able to salvage for their families to eat. To fully comprehend what this means is unimaginable to me as there has never been a day in my life where I have not had access to food and clean water. It is such a luxury that we take for granted in our everyday lives.

So for now what I know I can do is offer my time and a whole lot of love, gratitude and compassion to build a playground for children who have not had access to one before. It sounds so trivial yet so bloody exciting to see the faces of the children as they test run the equipment. It is now my fourth visit to Cambodia and all I do know is how right it feels to be here. The sense of familiarity and knowing that where you are is exactly where you are meant to be overwhelms to a place of pure connection and divine guidance.

It has allowed me to understand that the time that I spend worrying and doing my head in about life is so futile and draining. There is so much more the world needs than my perceived meek problems. It is so minimal in comparison to what I have been witness to in just the last week, let alone what is endured here every other day. What is real are some of the villages that we do visit, women have been known to use rocks and sticks to stop their menstrual bleeding. The injustice hurts my heart. Sure there are elements that are connected to lack of money but there is so much more. If we all raised our awareness about justice and compassion peace can prevail for ALL of humanity. I surrender, I trust that I am divinely guided and ALWAYS provided for.Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

 

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day

With love

Sonia

xoxoxo

I am my own very best friend. Older friends may come and go, but I am always here for me. I support myself in feeling good.

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Learning to be my own best friend would have to be one of the most awesome lessons that I have been able to learn. When I looked at the affirmation I pondered for a little and wondered what it actually meant for me. What I am really aware of right now is that I am back in Cambodia for the fourth time in exactly 2 years. This time two years ago I certainly wasn’t my own very best friend and so much has happened since that very first trip. So the affirmation for today feels really symbolic for me is no so many ways. Not only is it about friendship with others but most importantly about the friendship I have with myself.

One of the most significant lessons is what my idea of friendship actually means and as time, lessons and years unveil, what friendship once was may be no longer. I know for me the last two years there has also been significant shift in friendships. It is not about whether or not it is good or bad it just is. The most important aspect that I have been able to acknowledge are the parts of me that are also growing and learning each time a shift happens. Whatever the situation that may present itself it is about reflecting that what is going on is merely a reflection as to where you are at or have been in the past. There is no reason to judge but to take personal responsibility and grow from the amazing lessons that presented. Each time it is about learning to be my own best friend.

So as I write after a day of building a playground in a remote village in Cambodia, I realise just how much I value my own friendship.  I realise and know even more so just how much gratitude and compassion I have for myself and how bloody blessed I am. It makes me understand how ridiculous it is each time I look at myself at the mirror and scold myself for being too whatever. For God’s sake I have food to fill my belly. When I get annoyed that my pants or tops that aren’t right, I can appreciate the abundance that I do have. The freedom in buying clothes is a choice that I have taken for granted so many times. It is not about judging or berating my actions, thoughts and feelings but acknowledging that I can be my own worst enemy or very best friend. Not sure about you but I would rather be my own very best friend. We can be so critical of our beautiful selves and find it way too easy to criticize and condemn our actions. When was the last time you looked at yourself in the mirror and said “I am awesome” Give it a go!! Cambodia feels like a best friend to me right now because it teaches me so much about myself and my life and I am so blessed to be in the Country of Wonder, a country that has taught me to know that I AM AWESOME! I am my own very best friend. Older friends may come and go, but I am always here for me. I support myself in feeling good.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

 

With HUGE love

Sonia

xoxoxo

Challenges are opportunities for me to grow. The more I learn, the more equipped I am to handle whatever situations come up.

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Almost two years ago to the very date I sat in the same place that I am sitting right now. I am in Kuala Lumpur International Airport waiting for a connecting flight to Siem Reap Cambodia. A place that I travelled to as a participant of a . I remember at the time I almost didn’t go for a myriad of reasons. I had just separated after a 7 year relationship. I was recovering from a sinus nose operation, I was living with my folks and I had just enough money to get a plane ticket and pay for the trip that would change my life in so many ways. Ways that at the time I could not have fathomed to even begin to comprehend. So as I write my affirmation I feel amazingly grateful right now for ALL the challenges in my life as they have led me exactly to where I am right now. I really LOVE my life!

What the last two years have especially taught me is how to live loving. The lessons have been profound and the most valuable would have to be the never ending lesson of loving myself. Not only to learn to love myself but especially how to love with compassion for others. I am not necessarily talking about friends and family, for most of the time they are easy peezy to love. Rather what I am embracing is that I learn to love and accept each part of me and with that I have more love and compassion for the rest of humanity. Sounds pretty simple I reckon but I can tell you right now each hurdle or challenge that presents generally has a theme of a lack of love, insecurity or ego having a play. For when I love and truly love ALL aspects of who I am then the rest just follows.

People often ask me why I keep going back to Cambodia. There are no real words to describe other than the feeling of “home” that it represents for me. The simplicity and gratitude of what life has to offer overwhelms me with such generosity and magic. More importantly it is about a connection to know that we are all the same and that every living person has the right to justice, equality and peace. My heart over pours with emotion as I feel into the Cambodian people, for the injustice of country that is filled with so many things but above all gratitude and compassion.

What I do know that with all the challenges that last two years have presented me they have certainly created a pretty awesome version of who I am right now. I could never have foreseen what the potential of “the break up” could have been, but two years on and life is more exciting than what I have ever known. Far out what amazing lessons I have learnt! It was never an ending it was simply a wondrous new beginning. When you believe and shine your light magic happens. Challenges are opportunities for me to grow. The more I learn, the more equipped I am to handle whatever situations come up. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

 

HUGE love

Sonia

xxx