41. I willingly release the need for struggle and suffering. I deserve to have a fulfilling life and I accept it now.

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I am so grateful for the affirmation today and allowing me to hear exactly what I needed at the perfect time. I have had way too many thoughts and worries going on in my head lately and quite frankly I don’t like the amount of space that I am consuming on energy that has no value and stifles my creativity. I attended a funeral today. I actually took myself out of my heart space and focused on everything but the pain on my friend.  It may sound selfish and it some aspects it may be but for me right now I know what my limitations and delving into her pain will not serve me. It doesn’t mean that I am not sending her love nor that I am not sad or sorry for her but instead I am practising compassion with detachment and applying what I know how elsewhere.

I have felt like I have been struggling of late, life has felt sad but there have been many moments of blessings and gratitude and for these I am grateful. I appreciate the contrast and make sure that I am looking after myself. So today after the funeral today my energy was heavy and drained. Tonight I went to my aunt’s home for dinner and spent time with my crazy cousins and filled myself back up with love. It is all about the contrast and allowing receiving when I am vulnerable. My aunt’s home is so giving and I am very blessed

So when I reflect on the message for today it is a strong reminder to give up my worries and concerns about the future and to not feel anxious about what may or may not be. What I do know is that my focus on the next chapter is one that is filled with excitement and new opportunities rather than worrying about where to next. I have complete faith and trust that the universe will provide. Sure I have to put myself out there but the risk far outweighs being stagnant or not growing from my experiences. In the end they are all just “stories” and it depends on how we perceive them that is the difference. I can choose to look at this time of my life as uncertainty and worry or I could give up the struggle and say “hey universe I am so ready to receive with open arms for the next exciting miraculous adventure that you have ready for me”

The most prominent in the message for today are the words “I deserve”. This was a lesson that took me a while to know and understand but one of the greatest gifts I feel you can ever give yourself. I totes know now that I deserve to have a fulfilling life and I am so grateful to my writing and the words of Louise Hay that have reminded me of this lesson. We are always learning and imperfectly perfect. I willingly release the need for struggle and suffering. I deserve to have a fulfilling life and I accept it now. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow you day.

With love

Sonia

xoxox

39. I accept opportunities when they come my way. I feel confident about my future.

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I love the timing of the affirmation presented to me today. I am in the middle of transition with my job at the moment with a contract about to finish. I am putting my feelers up to see what it out there and have dabbled in a few applications. Today I received my first official, “thanks but no thanks” email. For the first time ever I was really cool with it. Rather than go into the mode of “Oh no I just got a rejection email” my first thought was oh well clearly that wasn’t meant to be for me right now and the universe has a different door that I am meant to walk through.

So as one door closes I am confident that brand new ones will open and I am really excited. My dad is an extremely funny and no nonsense kind of man. He is a straight shooter and has an opinion about everything. His way is ALWAYS the right way. So the other day when I mentioned to him that I was looking for work as a contract was ending he took an opportunity to tell me that I am always changing jobs, that I never stay in one place and after that I just heard blah blah. Rather than retaliate I had a laugh and said “dad you are absolutely right!” I love change and it means that life is never boring. He still carried on and continued with his story (as he does) and it was a great reminder that life is about perception. I especially love the quote by Dr Wayne Dyer “When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change” My dad is one of my greatest teachers. He teaches me to be relentless in what I want to achieve and reminds me about patience, acceptance and compassion. There was a time when a conversation such at the one mentioned would have ended in an argument but I acknowledge that there is truth in what he is saying. The difference is I am not seeking his approval, not his nor of anybody else. I love myself enough to know that the only approval that is important is mine.

So for now as I transition to a new phase in my life I have complete trust and faith that doors will open. As I have already witnessed some doors may not open and that it totally cool as well. I approve and love myself for who I am and know that I am worthy of receiving the best possible opportunities that will fulfil my life purpose and passion. So for now it is about learning to surrender, to trust and know that everything will be exactly the way it is meant to. I feel that the path ahead is cleared of all obstacles for an exciting future that is filled with magic and miracles. I accept opportunities that come my way.  I feel confident about my future. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Lots of love

Sonia

xxo

33. I have the power to create all that I wish with my mind and my thoughts. I am truly someone special.

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Changing perception is something that I have been aware of and practising for quite some time now. It is also something that I write about on a regular basis. Still there are times where I struggle to find the perfect thoughts and I can fall into a slump. What is important is that I recognise this and know that what goes on inside my mind is what happens in my outer world. So if I have shitty and unpleasant thoughts then life attracts the same.

The last few months have been really challenging and somewhat tough. My aunt passed away and soon after my cousin committed suicide. Many years ago I myself lived with depression and know the feeling of wanting life to end all too well. Her death has left us with a heavy heart and immense sadness. About a week ago I had a healing and some of the fog dispersed and the sun is seeping through.  I can’t change what happened, nor can I go back in my mind about what could have or should have been. Rather what I do know now is that I have the power to channel the adversity of her death into something that is positive and a tribute to her legacy.

We are all special and unique. There is no one better than another and we all have the potential to light our own unique flame. The injustice that saddens me is the masses of people that live in places of the world where impoverishment is debilitating. So I am filled with gratitude with all that I have and this certainly gives me the power to create all I wish. In the meantime I can contribute to peace and justice in ways that I know how.

So when life presents with what we may perceives as challenges, heartbreak and grief they can also be filtered into creative potential and being of service to others through what we have learnt. The last few months has seen my life with more than a few endings. I can choose to see them as negative or I can experience them as growth and resilience. That doesn’t mean that I do not feel or that grief and sadness is not warranted, but what I do know is that it can be directed into other outlets rather than bitterness, resentment and anger. Today as I sit to write my blog my body is weary and a cold is approaching. For me it is about taking time to heal, nurture and refocus my life into all that I wish to create. I truly believe that the universe forces you to stop at times and just be. To just feel life for ALL that it is no matter what comes up. Yes there has been heartbreak and endings but it has also shown me love on a deeper level that I did not know before these experiences. I have the power to create all that I wish with my mind and my thoughts. I am truly special. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

 

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

31. I release all resistance to attracting money. I am worthy of a positive cash flow.

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I just picked myself an “angel” card. The card was Serena “I am the Angel of Abundance. You will receive the money that you need, and God is in charge of how that will happen. Have faith” I sat down and flicked the calendar to today and surprise surprise there was an affirmation about cash flow. Yes Universe I hear you loud and clear. For me this affirmation and angel reading is about stepping up, onwards and upwards. Sure the affirmations is directed towards money and cash flow but this will only happen once I step into my own power and truly believe in myself. Playing small doesn’t serve me nor does it serve anybody else.

To be perfectly honest doing what you always done simply gets you what you always got and to be quite frank it’s shitty and dark. Sometimes shitty and dark is where you need to be.. If you don’t know what the darkness looks like you can never appreciate the light. So although the affirmation and angel card very well may be about money for me it represents so much more than that. If I am in my flow, my purpose .my heart space with compassion and love then money will come to me easily. If I choose to stay in the dark and shitty place then this is all that I will continue to attract. Getting out of that place is what is important. It is not to be judged because of a lot of good stuff and growth happens when we are in our darkness. What I always remember is the darker the darkness the brighter the light.

Ultimately is up to you what you do with your life choices and that will be the difference that you are in the world. You can continue to blame whatever and whoever but personal responsibility is what is most crucial. Some days you may be only able to muster getting out of bed and others you will conquer. There is no right or wrong but our lives are uniquely ours. Sometimes we detour for a while but I am firm believer that sometimes wading through the shit gets us to the magic that we need to see that perhaps we could not see before.

The last month for me has been dark and shitty. That is not to say that there may not be days where I may or may not feel this way. It is about choice to either stay there or pull myself out of there. Living in your heart space, allowing yourself to do what your soul yearns to do is a massive start, unconditional love and integrity is where the action takes place. We can allow ego to take over and for the parasites to infest our minds or we can say fuck ofsky, I have a life to live. So yes the affirmation today very well may have been about money and cash flow but is about so much more. Living life with ease, grace, truth and authenticity is where abundance resides. I release all resistance to attracting money. I am worthy of a positive cash flow. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste

 

 

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

30. I love experiencing every age. I rejoice in each passing year.

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I love my birthday. I love everything about it. I love being the centre of attention, (yup you heard right) and I love receiving presents. What I love most is I love celebrating me with people that I love and cherish. Too often in life we get caught up in our age and how quickly time passes. Sure it does. As the old saying goes, the older we get the quicker time does pass. For me personally time does seem to go by at a ridiculous fast paced rate, but it is what we do with that time that makes the most difference. More importantly it is the way we feel and act towards our beautiful self that is the most sacred and important. Our world is simply a reflection of who we are. If we are able to see beauty in ourselves then we can see beauty all around us.

This morning as I plucked the excess hair from my eyebrows, I undeniably noticed the hair on my upper lip glaring back at me with the morning sun. I looked up around my face and noticed the white hair poking around. I rolled my eyes and started to groan at the reflection looking back at me. Then I stopped and caught myself at what I was doing. Sure I need a pluck and a wax but I shouldn’t have to start the day not liking at what I see in the mirror. So as I caught myself about to berate what I saw in the mirror I looked back and saw a beautiful wise woman.  So instead this is what I told myself and even though in that moment I may not have felt it entirely, the thoughts I had instantly shifted to being brighter and lighter.

I caught up with a friend this morning. Soul sisters are the mirrors in our lives and although they cannot pick you up, they sure can extend their hands and help lift you up. They sit by your side, hug you, laugh or cry with you and allow you to believe again when you can’t for yourself.  What came up the most and always does is the way we treat and loves ourselves, especially when there is “stuff” going on in our lives. I know for me in the last month I have not looked after myself nor I have been loving and kind on myself. My thoughts have been reckless and negative and I have chosen to recluse for a little. That is cool as long as I am recognising what it is that I am doing and do not choose to stay there.

So when I read the affirmation for today it was such an awesome reminder about loving me for who I am and all that I can be. To rejoice and celebrate in the magnificence of each year for it is truly a blessing that we have a beating heart. Who gives a F&(*K  if I have hair on my upper lip, eyebrows that need plucking and white hair. I am fabulously me and I love, honour and cherish ALL of me. Some days are tougher than others and that is cool. This is the fabulous learning of life and what joy it is. I love experiencing every age. I rejoice in each passing year. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

 

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

 

 

26. I am always safe no matter which “doorway” I pass through.

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The affirmation that I am writing about today is actually the affirmation for Tuesday March the 17th.  As I began to write the calendar flicked to the affirmation for yesterday. I took it as a sign that this was the one that I was meant to write about today. It seems fitting as I sit here the day after the funeral of my cousin. I haven’t been able to write about since her death just over 10 days ago. She took her own life and what I can pray for is not only for her but for all of us is that we are all now safe as we are going through this next chapter, journey and doorway in our lives.

My cousin was 45 years young and a lot of her life was spent dealing with her issues of depression and a myriad of mental health issues. It doesn’t make it better or easier but what it does do is slap you in the face to know how harsh and real depression and suicide is. It has shaken our world in a way that we could not have ever imagined and life won’t go back to normal. Our experiences in life change us and quite frankly I don’t want to be dormant about the issues about mental health anymore. This doorway that I now pass through is one where life experience has changed and my world feels different.

It is about time that we all started to look after each other that little bit more, to extend our kindness and to come from a place of compassion for each and every person that we meet.  I try not to think about the things that I could, should or would have done for her. The decision was for her to make. For me right now there is some comfort knowing it was the one decision that she made for herself where she felt she had control. Many years ago I remember reading that people who commit suicide don’t want to die, they simply don’t see any other way out. I find some comfort in knowing that she has found her own inner sanctuary and is being loved and cared for by the 1000 angels that surround and heal her now.

For me my own journey of depression and mental illness is something that is I have been able to find so much strength and wisdom from. My wish is that each person that has lived with any type of mental illness is able to find their own gift that dwells within. To be able to find our own doorway to safety, no matter what happens in life. Without our darkness there is no light so in those moments it is where our gifts are unveiled. Sometimes we can’t do this for ourselves and for my dear departed cousin the feeling is so raw and intense that my heart feel irreparable right now. Perhaps a bit of it will always be a little broken because that was the way it was meant to be. Right now there are so many feeling and emotions happening that life the way it used to is no longer and that is OK as well. Life’s events define who we are and whether they are good bad or different they lead us to doorways of safety and growth. We are reminded to live life with compassion and kindness for all of humanity and that the spirit of community is one that should all be united to.  I am always safe no matter which “doorway” I pass through. Blessed be and so it is, so it is done. Namaste.

 

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo

18. Everyone changes, and I allow change in everyone.

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Oh my, how things change but how bloody boring life would be if it all stayed the same. Sometimes change is forced upon us and hits us like a brick wall and we really don’t know what to do with it. There are other times when change shakes our whole world inside out and upside down. Change can cause us to be incredibly anxious and fearful. If we didn’t change it would simply be groundhog day and not sure about you but quite frankly I much prefer spontaneity and excitement to dull and dreary. There is a simple saying that I love and allows me to take responsibility for what happens in my life and it states “For things to change. First I must change” Simple but ever so true.

One of the most gracious gifts that we can deliver to ourselves is personal responsibility. When things happen in life we often look for a scape goat or a reason as to why it has occurred. Life presents us with challenges on so many levels. At times it feels like are climbing a never ending mountain only for an avalanche to occur and we are right back to where we have started. It feels like crap and we have every right to be tired and weary. What can happen in these instances is that we can simply fall into a heap at the bottom (which is totally OK) or we can rest and find the courage and strength to start again. It doesn’t mean either way that we have failed rather it reminds us that there is so much strength in our vulnerability and allowing change to happen around is simply part of the process. Sometimes the avalanche has to occur in order for us to simply stop and allow change to occur. When we don’t listen the universe certainly forces us to, which then allows time to refocus and continue on the path we are meant to travel.

Sometimes change feel like a slap in the face and it takes a while to embrace what has actually occurred. Other times the change is so fricken awesome and it welcome so many opportunities. Allowing others to change is liberating, sometimes that may mean that the path once shared is no longer but I truly believe that it is part of a divine plan that leads us to extraordinary things. I can speak with experience about this for each time I have felt betrayed or rejected by something or someone it has only been because the universe had bigger and better plans for me. I no longer choose to get up in the drama or why, where and how it all occurred. It is irrelevant. Life is too precious for that. It doesn’t mean that I do not feel but when you only come from a place of love and compassion there is no other way. Everyone changes, and I allow change in everyone. Blessed be and so it is. So it is done. Namaste.

 

With a sprinkle of fairy dust and may magic follow your day.

Sonia

Xoo